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Joe, I've been pretty depressed in my life at certain points for various reasons. You have to change your situation. Move to Columbia, get some roommates and start over. If you stay where you are at, and keep doing the same things, nothing will change.
The loss of all that I have attained is often my biggest stressor and contributor to anxiety and depression. My home, my relationship with my wife, my financial standing, etc. But sometimes when I am in a funk thinking about that, I also think about how fun or interesting it might be to start over. There is so much possibility from that vantage point, that the fear of losing it all doesn't quite seem as dreadful.
I hope that the OP can see the road forward as the exciting, new, and unpredictable journey that it is. There is nothing holding back OP other than himself, which is a predicament that I think I lot of people would rather be in.
I slept 18 hours today. That's kinda the way it has gone lately.
Joe, thank you for being strong and holding on! As a vet, who does weekly group therapy, I’ve been around a lot of people who were ready to give up and end it all. I saw a guy on Facebook a few years ago actually follow through, and end his entire existence with little thought to it. I never want to see or hear of anything like that again.
All can say is keep fighting, and take it day by day. But don’t go at this alone, you need the help of a good medical professional.
Many larger churches offer free or almost-free ($10) counseling services.
Therapy for many is unaffordable, but you might call around and ask. I found two without trying too hard. You don't have to be a "Believer", it's a community outreach service and they won't pressure you.
To the OP--I don't think you are depressed. I think you are just sad about your life situation. As CatTX wrote, make plans for the future. Make little changes to your life. I have been pretty sad this last year. I recently went on a solo trip to a National Park. Those few days--I was feeling good, every morning I woke up and immediately started to plan my day. It was a new scenery to look at. It was a good break from feeling sad. I am back home now, back to the tunnel of darkness. What I learned from my trip is that I need to find new things to do every week. Life is not going to be great every day. I focus on finding pockets of joy in simple things to keep me going.
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I find a good way to deal with being down is to make plans for the future and work toward those plans, even if only a little at a time.
I agree with this. Even making simple plans like taking a walk in a park. Even finding a new book to read. I just started back to reading books. I look forward to finding a pocket of time to read my book.
Many insurances have contracts with teladoc type services for medical and mental health care. Contact your insurer to see which ones are in network for you.
I have fought depression on and off since my teens although first diagnosed when I was 22. It's been a constant struggle and I am tired of the fight. It feels like that is all I have done for most of my life and I am just tired. I said elsewhere that not everyone can be a success. Some of us have t fail. I gave it my best. It just was not meant to be.
Thanks all for your comments
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