Am I too hard on myself?

[lovesMountains]

How you feeling today ChiGuy? Hang in there, it gets better

[softcrunch]

No. You'd be better feeling awful... it was valentine's and on your little trip, and her birthday coming up and you had been together for how long?....Its really the worst so you naturally should feel bad, if you feel great then you're worst than not breaking up with her.

The damage is done, no point dwelling on it unless you still have feelings for her.

[Adhom]

I'm pretty sure even if you gave your ex girlfriend the best mini vacation and birthday ever but broke up with her soon after, the wonderful memories of those events will be forever poisoned by the breakup.