I've never really have a good relationship

[MercedesBoy]

Originally Posted by PoisnIvy

I had relationship(s) but was I happy? No. I am always the one who cares, trying to fix things, etc. In general I never really have a relationship where the effort is equal or he loves/care more. Is always a one sided relationship and I am the one who usually put all the effort and cares.

I am sure someone in here can relate?

Unfortunately, people like to be treated like crap. It keeps them (you) interested.

I knew somebody who was always the doormat to her husband, her in-laws (whom she placed on a pedestal), and her kids. Always played the victim and nice guy role. This led her to become bitter but toward the wrong people, many of whom were actually nice to her and never did anything to her. All backwards.
Sounds like low self-esteem.

[TurcoLoco]

Originally Posted by PoisnIvy

Oh trust me I have done all of this things . Even with all the necessary steps I still end up with douche

So when they cheated on me, lie to me over again . They are not bad guys?

It is a numbers game till you fine-tune your senses on filtering out the garbage.

As long as you are getting dates, be happy because you still have a chance.
One bag full with "chances", the other bag was empty which you are filling up with "Experience". Hopefully, you will find the right guy before the first bag goes empty.

If you are true to yourself and not give up, you will find yourself a "good enough" match.
Alternative is that you could end up joining the horde of bitter, self-deprecating singles out there which you don't want.

[randomx]

Originally Posted by PoisnIvy

I had relationship(s) but was I happy? No. I am always the one who cares, trying to fix things, etc. In general I never really have a relationship where the effort is equal or he loves/care more. Is always a one sided relationship and I am the one who usually put all the effort and cares.

I am sure someone in here can relate?

You don't get involved with somebody where the effort giving care affection feelings, isn't "at least" equal. You need to see all that first and a lot more and over a few mths, consistently.
Take your time, any real relationship usually takes a few mths min to assess and protect your heart early on first before it can even get that far. Don't throw it all at it, or your trust into someone a wk, a mth or 2 or 3 mths in, you need to know and see what someone is made of first. This stuff is earnt and if they're feeling the same and truly care they'll respect that.