A sudden burst of tear :(
Posted 11-08-2016 at 06:30 PM by keraT
I am test driving a car, I am pretty sure I want this. Just need to get the price down. After 8 months of looking, I am finally ready. This was the first car I wanted but I chickened out due to price. I looked at cheaper options, alternative options. I test drove soooo many cars.. But nothing made my heart skip a little bit as this car did.
There I am happy test driving. Looking for a freeway to speed up & see how it handles speed. To my bad luck just as I hit 80, I notice cop car. I slow down instantly but too late. Laser reading got me. I get pulled over. I curse myself. I explain how I am testing the car. The cop still gives me speeding ticket. I am sad, mad, laughing at myself all at once. I call my husband as comfort, to share this goofy moment with him.
But instead he reminds me how I got another ticket recently. How I deserve this because I spent 8 months looking for car when he buys car in same day. I hang up in anger because this is not what I need from him now & there I am in tears in a car I am test driving reflecting on my life & my stupidity for turning to someone. For my need to be validated.
So what I got a ticket, its my money, I will pay for it. So what I spent 8 months looking for car only to go back to the original one. I didn't need it, so I didn't buy it. Its my time, I will spend as I please. Then why do I let this people get to me.
To celebrate my crappy day, here I am in a restaurant all by myself enjoying a meal after voting.
There I am happy test driving. Looking for a freeway to speed up & see how it handles speed. To my bad luck just as I hit 80, I notice cop car. I slow down instantly but too late. Laser reading got me. I get pulled over. I curse myself. I explain how I am testing the car. The cop still gives me speeding ticket. I am sad, mad, laughing at myself all at once. I call my husband as comfort, to share this goofy moment with him.
But instead he reminds me how I got another ticket recently. How I deserve this because I spent 8 months looking for car when he buys car in same day. I hang up in anger because this is not what I need from him now & there I am in tears in a car I am test driving reflecting on my life & my stupidity for turning to someone. For my need to be validated.
So what I got a ticket, its my money, I will pay for it. So what I spent 8 months looking for car only to go back to the original one. I didn't need it, so I didn't buy it. Its my time, I will spend as I please. Then why do I let this people get to me.
To celebrate my crappy day, here I am in a restaurant all by myself enjoying a meal after voting.
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