Avoiding social situations (depression, treatment, 5 lbs, gained)

[h19]

Last year, there was an 8 month period where I had lost a significant amount of weight. My weight dropped too low, but for the first time in my life I was finally confident. I gradually started to gain the weight back and regained almost everything that I had lost ( At 4'10 I was 80 lbs at my lowest and now weigh 107). Currently, I have been isolating myself from everyone. I avoid most social situation, specifically with people I know, with the fear that they will be judging me by my weight gain. Any pointers on how to overcome this would be much appreciated.

[lubby]

How old are you?? 107 is not heavy at all. I know you are 4'10" but a healthy weight should be anywhere between 90 and 105 lbs. depending on the size of your frame from what I have read.

[chiroptera]

Oh my, you are tiny. I worry that you have an eating disorder and a warped sense of your size and how others see you.

Does this ring any bells for you?
Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD) | Anxiety and Depression Association of America, ADAA

I think, if you can, getting counseling or in group treatment would be very helpful.

[DaniellaG]

Have you thought of seeing a therapist? Your weight before you gained was unhealthy and can you try to focus on the weight you gained was regaining health? You are judging yourself more then others are judging you because you feel uncomfortable with yourself. If you can work on ways to build your self esteem outside of appearance the outside will matter less.
In terms of avoiding social situations in my opinion this is something to set as a goal to face rather then avoid. Isolation is just going to make you feel worse.