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I've been taking percocet for 2.5 years recreationally. I'm about to run out and I won't be able to get anymore. I'm down to about 25 7.5mg percocets and I'm getting really nervous. I take anywhere between 15-25mgs a night. I weigh 130lbs. This is enough to give me a decent buzz and has for 2.5 years.
I tried to start cutting back a little at a time until I gave out so the withdrawals wouldn't be so bad but I'm am officially admitting now I'm addicted to them. I can't stop on my own. I'll have to run out and it's about to happen. I don't think I'm going to be dope sick or anything like that but I'm going to miss that rush of dopamine entering my brain at night before bed.
I'm about to re-enter life without oxycodone and I'm honestly scared to death. I know 15-25mgs isn't a lot but I look forward to it all day while I'm at work. Even though it sounds like it, I'm not a loser. I have a career in IT, own my home, 3 vehicles and have a great dog. I've always been financially responsible and currently have no debt at 30 years old. I do have hobbies like playing guitar and playing with my dog.
I feel like when I run out I'm not going to have any kind of motivation anymore. I will no longer have that buzz to look forward to when the day is coming to an end. During the past 2.5 years, there were a few instances where I had to go a day or two without any and needless to say those days really sucked.
With the amount I take a day will it take long for my brain chemistry to get back in order? I don't crave oxy during the day, only after 6pm. Maybe it won't be so bad since I never increased my dosage?
Any advice or suggestions would be great. If you've never experienced drug addiction and are coming in here to judge me and tell me I had choices. Don't. I know I had choices. The past 5 years of my life have been complete hell and I know that's no excuse. I lost my mother 4 years ago and then became a caregiver to my father who just lost his battle with cancer.
Even if you don't think that your doses are that high, call those numbers. Get some information, find the help that you need. These people will be able to better help you than any of us.
I'm not, nor have I ever, abused drugs, so no, I do not understand, but I'm not here to judge you, either. When I broke my ankle, I was given Oxycontin...I took one dose. When I started to hallucinate that there was a dog in the driveway, plus the fact that it made me feel sick, I said, "hell no" to it and never took it again. On the flip side, I was given two Vicodin when I was taken to get my x-rays. They worked fast, my pain was gone, I was laughing like an idiot and joking with the x-ray tech. I felt fantastic even though my ankle was so busted up that I needed a metal plate and pins. So I kind of understand how one can get addicted to something like that. I'm just glad I was never given more Vicodin.
Last edited by Three Wolves In Snow; 01-23-2016 at 11:34 PM..
Reason: Ugh, not Valium, Vicodin...I just knew it started with a "V".
You are not alone and you aren't the first person to be addicted to opiates. Far from it. You've tried to handle this on your own, and you know now that it won't work.
It's a good first step to admit that you are powerless over it. But you will need much more than this board can give you. As you know in your bones, the people who can help you are those of us who have been there.
Call Narcotics Anonymous. Someone will pick up the phone. Tell them what you wrote here, and ask for help getting to a meeting. You will be amazed at the range of people you will see in the room. You will be stunned to hear complete strangers talking about the things they've done to get drugs -- things you've done too. http://www.NA.org
Recovery is possible, but it isn't possible alone, and it isn't possible simply by posting on the internet. Get to a meeting -- there is experience, strength and hope waiting for you to pick it up. You don't have to live in the shadows, hating yourself for something that you can't control. You can't change the past, you can only change the future if you reach out to others and follow their advice.
Do it now, because if you don't, the addiction will take everything you love away from you -- job, position, money, house, spouse, children, life. It works if you work it. Call NA as soon as you read these words. Get to a meeting.
I've been taking percocet for 2.5 years recreationally. I'm about to run out and I won't be able to get anymore. I'm down to about 25 7.5mg percocets and I'm getting really nervous. I take anywhere between 15-25mgs a night. I weigh 130lbs. This is enough to give me a decent buzz and has for 2.5 years.
I tried to start cutting back a little at a time until I gave out so the withdrawals wouldn't be so bad but I'm am officially admitting now I'm addicted to them. I can't stop on my own. I'll have to run out and it's about to happen. I don't think I'm going to be dope sick or anything like that but I'm going to miss that rush of dopamine entering my brain at night before bed.
I'm about to re-enter life without oxycodone and I'm honestly scared to death. I know 15-25mgs isn't a lot but I look forward to it all day while I'm at work. Even though it sounds like it, I'm not a loser. I have a career in IT, own my home, 3 vehicles and have a great dog. I've always been financially responsible and currently have no debt at 30 years old. I do have hobbies like playing guitar and playing with my dog.
I feel like when I run out I'm not going to have any kind of motivation anymore. I will no longer have that buzz to look forward to when the day is coming to an end. During the past 2.5 years, there were a few instances where I had to go a day or two without any and needless to say those days really sucked.
With the amount I take a day will it take long for my brain chemistry to get back in order? I don't crave oxy during the day, only after 6pm. Maybe it won't be so bad since I never increased my dosage?
Any advice or suggestions would be great. If you've never experienced drug addiction and are coming in here to judge me and tell me I had choices. Don't. I know I had choices. The past 5 years of my life have been complete hell and I know that's no excuse. I lost my mother 4 years ago and then became a caregiver to my father who just lost his battle with cancer.
Get time off work right away. Take your dog to a trusted caregiver. Clean the house and finish all laundry and errands. Call a treatment center and secure a room.
You ARE going to be sick... real sick. Two years plus isn.t going to not hurt. Don.t do it at home. You need to put urself in a safe place with professionals, like in a couple days. And shame on you for taking good drugs and going to sleep: what a waste!
You are NOT alone and you CAN get thru it one day at a time.
There are many people who have been where you are, so take the advice of other posters and get professional help to get through this. Why tough it out, and reduce your chance of success, by going it alone?
I've been taking percocet for 2.5 years recreationally. I'm about to run out and I won't be able to get anymore. I'm down to about 25 7.5mg percocets and I'm getting really nervous. I take anywhere between 15-25mgs a night. I weigh 130lbs. This is enough to give me a decent buzz and has for 2.5 years.
I tried to start cutting back a little at a time until I gave out so the withdrawals wouldn't be so bad but I'm am officially admitting now I'm addicted to them. I can't stop on my own. I'll have to run out and it's about to happen. I don't think I'm going to be dope sick or anything like that but I'm going to miss that rush of dopamine entering my brain at night before bed.
I'm about to re-enter life without oxycodone and I'm honestly scared to death. I know 15-25mgs isn't a lot but I look forward to it all day while I'm at work. Even though it sounds like it, I'm not a loser. I have a career in IT, own my home, 3 vehicles and have a great dog. I've always been financially responsible and currently have no debt at 30 years old. I do have hobbies like playing guitar and playing with my dog.
I feel like when I run out I'm not going to have any kind of motivation anymore. I will no longer have that buzz to look forward to when the day is coming to an end. During the past 2.5 years, there were a few instances where I had to go a day or two without any and needless to say those days really sucked.
With the amount I take a day will it take long for my brain chemistry to get back in order? I don't crave oxy during the day, only after 6pm. Maybe it won't be so bad since I never increased my dosage?
Any advice or suggestions would be great. If you've never experienced drug addiction and are coming in here to judge me and tell me I had choices. Don't. I know I had choices. The past 5 years of my life have been complete hell and I know that's no excuse. I lost my mother 4 years ago and then became a caregiver to my father who just lost his battle with cancer.
When I talked to my doctor about quitting a long term and severe addiction to alcohol he told me: "Don't even bother trying to quit unless you have something to replace it with." He knew I was not someone who would ever practice moderation and I needed a benign addiction. So I quit drinking and took up dirt-track stock car racing. It worked: the racing devoured entire weekends, a good many late nights and a substantial amount of money -- just like alcohol, but relatively benign. I have now retired from stock car racing after a track championship in 2008 and bicycle every change I get.
I never went to a single AA meeting or anything like that, despite propaganda that my method never works. But if meetings or group support would be your thing go for it!
Play music semi-professionally? Become a dog trainer? I can't say what will work for you, but a vacuum is not good!
Opiate dependency is a tough nut. I've been on pain management for ten years. Up till a few months ago they had me up to an insane dose to. MS Contain 60s 3 times a day and oxycodone 10s every 6 hours prn for breakthrough. I needed it for a while. My condition is pretty severe. Working with my doctors over the last few months I've got it backed off to 3 10 mg oxycodones per day doing the job. Stopping the morphine was HARD. Even still having the oxy.
I stupidly tried stopping the oxy as well, on my own, just to see what would happen, and wound up in the hospital. I highly recommend seeking medical help. Opiate withdrawal CAN be life threatening, though they say its not. Even in lighter dose dependency cases, the insomnia, nausea and diarrhea can be enough to seriously deplete you. Since you don't have a serious pain condition to exacerbate the withdrawals, that's a blessing. Withdrawal is still more than uncomfortable. You can get help with that, however, and you should.. Without it, chances of success are seriously diminished.
I have a very painful condition, and I probably will be on these meds for the rest of my life, which is why I wanted to get the dosage backed way off. What I take is more effective now as well. At any rate, seek medical help, and best of luck.
It'll take at least a few months. That's how long it took my son's friend (heroine addict) to start to look and act like a normal person.
I'm sorry for your loss. My mother died a little more than two years ago, and it was devastating.
Dad, mom and my eldest brother are gone. I really miss them, but life goes on.
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