The hurt and the pain; the thick and the thin
Posted 05-11-2012 at 04:13 PM by Pikantari
The darkness took over as I sat here early in the morning. The only light came from my computer screen and my all black kitty squeaked out the faintest of meow as he walked up next to me, placing a paw on my leg.
I think animals know when there is something the matter with their humans... He sure seemed to.
I couldn't sleep, not for the lack of trying. I lay there tossing and turning finally getting out of bed at 2:30 in the morning and coming out and watching a little bit of tv for about a half hour.
I returned back to bed and lay there for an hour or so, beckoning sleep. I think I may have slept a little but the pain was so terrible that at 4 in the morning I got back out of bed and came and sat on the bed, tears streaming down my face. I suppose the last time I felt like this was around Christmastime, so I've had a nice little stretch.
Every joint and muscle in my body ached, they still do. I wasn't making a sound as the tears kept rolling from the pain. My kitty laying across my lap, we both hear the alarm go off. In just a few minutes my sweetie comes out here to the living room and sits next to me. His thumb glides across my face as he wipes away the tears and asks me why I am crying.
I tell him I just hurt all over. He wraps his arms around me and rubs my hair and face, kissing my forehead and then my lips. His touch is ever so slight, I think he doesn't want to hurt me. He walks me back to bed and covers me up and I try to get some sleep. Such a difficult and daunting task. I think I started to fall asleep pretty good when it was about time for him to come wake me up.
He wanted me to stay home from work today and told me to call him if I needed him, he would be just a few minutes away...
That was more than 12 hours ago and we have now both finished our days. I got home after him and he jumped up to greet me, wrapping his arms around me and giving me a kiss. He is gone now, to get our dinner.
I hate feeling the way I do. I hate it for me, and I hate it for him. I love that I have a man that loves me so much and is willing to stick by me through the thick and the thin. This is unlike anything I have ever known.....
I think animals know when there is something the matter with their humans... He sure seemed to.
I couldn't sleep, not for the lack of trying. I lay there tossing and turning finally getting out of bed at 2:30 in the morning and coming out and watching a little bit of tv for about a half hour.
I returned back to bed and lay there for an hour or so, beckoning sleep. I think I may have slept a little but the pain was so terrible that at 4 in the morning I got back out of bed and came and sat on the bed, tears streaming down my face. I suppose the last time I felt like this was around Christmastime, so I've had a nice little stretch.
Every joint and muscle in my body ached, they still do. I wasn't making a sound as the tears kept rolling from the pain. My kitty laying across my lap, we both hear the alarm go off. In just a few minutes my sweetie comes out here to the living room and sits next to me. His thumb glides across my face as he wipes away the tears and asks me why I am crying.
I tell him I just hurt all over. He wraps his arms around me and rubs my hair and face, kissing my forehead and then my lips. His touch is ever so slight, I think he doesn't want to hurt me. He walks me back to bed and covers me up and I try to get some sleep. Such a difficult and daunting task. I think I started to fall asleep pretty good when it was about time for him to come wake me up.
He wanted me to stay home from work today and told me to call him if I needed him, he would be just a few minutes away...
That was more than 12 hours ago and we have now both finished our days. I got home after him and he jumped up to greet me, wrapping his arms around me and giving me a kiss. He is gone now, to get our dinner.
I hate feeling the way I do. I hate it for me, and I hate it for him. I love that I have a man that loves me so much and is willing to stick by me through the thick and the thin. This is unlike anything I have ever known.....
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Have you looked in the Phone Book to find the nearest 'Pain Center' ??
They are specialist, and deal with pain.
I know, I have been going to them for the past six years, and they prescribe medications for any type of pain you would have.
Talk to your family Doctor and he/she may know of a Pain Center or someone who deals with pain that will prescribe you medication so you can live your life
I wish you well...
JessePosted 05-11-2012 at 06:53 PM by woodworkingmenace
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Hi there. No I have not. I have Rheumatoid Arthritis and Fibromyalgia and sometimes the pain is overbearing, other times there is none.
Thank you Jesse....Posted 05-11-2012 at 07:05 PM by Pikantari
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Oh my Gosh.... I was checking the blogs to to see if anyone had relocated because of their Fibromyalgia and or Spondylitis if they moved to the Low humidity- higher Barometric, warmer climate areas such as the Far West Region in or around the Desert area?
I was also wanting to know if they notice a huge mobility difference when they did and if they still do after living in such climate now for a period of time?
And....I came across this story, I teared because that kind of pain takes your mobility away from you, some days it can make you feel very helpless, depressed, useless and a burden to others. I am very sorry you go threw
Research and do whats best for you as in diet and excersise and medicines, as I know some days you can barley move no matter what! I can not take alot of the meds they have out there for these conditions. Research, research and research...Everyone is different.... I wish you the best.
Some are more sensitive to the weather changes; the cold: high humidity; barometric changes than others....
I live in Washington State and it is the only state I know that can have 4-seasons in one day...Lol...,It's pretty here just not so good for people whom have serious Fibromyalgia and Ankylosing Spondylitis and really bad arthritis of any kind for that matter. So anyone out there That has any great success stories with these conditions or let others know how your doing and if you noticed a difference after you moved to the Far West Regional Desert areas....
My Rheumatologist is always telling me to relocate there to that area... and Good Luck ! with finding something to take the edge off that pain.Posted 06-29-2012 at 03:33 AM by angelsrnx2u
