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This blog is where I express myself to the world or at least to those who might stop by to read what I post 
. Maybe God will use what I post (I am a Christian and this blog will have a most decidedly Christian bent to it) to good effect in the lives of my readers.
I may turn some of my posts into a book. I may cease blogging here altogether. Who knows. But for now..I am content to post away in this, my own little corner of the world.
Rather than reading through my now lengthy list of posts you may wish to read what I consider to be my very best posts or you can just read the posts that deal with a single subject category that might interest you.
Please know that I am open to any input on any topic I write about. If you have something to say about anything you see written here please....feel free to speak up in the form of leaving a comment or sending me a PM (private message).
And if you are in San Diego and wish to meet the one and only Carlos (that's me)...drop me a private message. I always enjoy meeting one of my readers!
Thanks.
Carlos
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. Maybe God will use what I post (I am a Christian and this blog will have a most decidedly Christian bent to it) to good effect in the lives of my readers. I may turn some of my posts into a book. I may cease blogging here altogether. Who knows. But for now..I am content to post away in this, my own little corner of the world.
Rather than reading through my now lengthy list of posts you may wish to read what I consider to be my very best posts or you can just read the posts that deal with a single subject category that might interest you.
Please know that I am open to any input on any topic I write about. If you have something to say about anything you see written here please....feel free to speak up in the form of leaving a comment or sending me a PM (private message).
And if you are in San Diego and wish to meet the one and only Carlos (that's me
)...drop me a private message. I always enjoy meeting one of my readers!Thanks.
Carlos
PS. If you want to follow my blog such that you will get an email when I write new posts you can subscribe to my blog.
The owner, the wireless router, and the hamburger.
Posted 01-28-2009 at 12:36 AM by carlos123
Updated 02-08-2009 at 09:58 PM by carlos123 (Changed category.)
Updated 02-08-2009 at 09:58 PM by carlos123 (Changed category.)
Be forewarned that this blog entry is rather dull and boring compared to some I've written. It's just a rehash of how my day was. Nothing special. But I do want to post something every day if I can.
Among other things, it's a way for me to honor you...my reader, who might have an interest in following my "adventure" and for posterity in helping me remember what these times were like.
I certainly do not believe that these difficult times will last much longer and I would like to capture what I go through by writing daily about it.
It's hard for me to understand why anyone would want to follow my daily life as some seem to do by reading this blog though...I must admit...my daily life is certainly not typical and does make for some interesting reading. Once in a while.
Anyway...I had high hopes for my day that weren't quite realized. It's okay. I mean I did what I could but I just didn't make it to doing what I wanted to do.
I woke up and rather angrily decided that no matter what the city said about my not being able to go door to door to solicit that I was going to do it anyway.
The issue of whether the city or any city has a right to tell me that what is perfectly acceptable in the eyes of God is wrong or illegal to do such that if I follow the law that I will end up homeless...is a big one. An issue I won't go into fully here. At least not today.
But I was determined to go soliciting again today. No matter what.
I first had some peanut butter and jelly a la carte for breakast and then headed out to do some much needed laundry.
After my laundry was done I came back ready to wash myself (I take semi-showers that are a cross between a sponge bath and a real shower since I do not have money to get a propane refill for the hot water tank) and looked forward to putting on some fresh, clean clothes. Heading out to solicit in some far away places afterwards.
That's when my day started to go awry. The owner of the place I live at stopped by to respond to a couple of emails I sent him last night on the really bad internet connection I was experiencing.
He is a real nice guy but he tends to talk a lot and he kept talking and talking and I kept listening and listening...all along wondering when might be the best time to interrupt him and tell him I had to go. Which I eventually did.
But...he also offered to let me use a second wireless router he had in the house. I had been talking to him about ways to boost the signal out to the trailer and he had wondered if I could use that second router somehow.
Well...my saliva almost started drooling out of my mouth as I contemplated using the second router as a repeater/extender of the present internet signal coming from the 1st router inside the garage.
Perhaps I should not have done so but, instead of going out to find work somewhere...I spent the rest of the day trying to diagnose and fix the faulty internet connection I was experiencing.
Tracking down whether the problem was in the cable modem, router number 1, my laptop wireless card, or otherwise. And seeing if I could indeed use the second router as a repeater.
It turns out that I can indeed use the second router as a repeater but it will take flashing a new, 3rd party firmware onto the onboard router memory, to do it. Which will involve still more work and time...another day...though I won't spend all day at it like I did today.
I absolutely must have a good internet connection! I have no phone and make all calls through my computer using Skype. I check messages to my toll free number, email my friends and family, do research about various things, stay in touch with the pulse of humanity (huh?), upload news stories that I can get paid for, check bank card balances, and do many other such things...all through my computer.
Not to mention finding things like where I am living through craigslist, sending out resumes - which I hope to do with a couple of jobs I would like to apply for, and doing things like updating this here blog.
Without an internet connection I am like a duck out of water.
So...I spent all day literally working on the internet. It's still not fixed completely but it's getting there.
For dinner tonight...I absolutely splurged and had a .99 cent burger again...making sure to tell them to put everything extra in it that didn't cost extra and a pita taco something or other.
While eating my pita taco I half jokingly said to the girl cleaning the tables that I might not have their taco anymore since, like the mini burgers I had the other day, the taco had looked so BIG in the picture but had turned out to be so much smaller in real life. A bit of a disappointment though the few bites I got out of it where quite good.
I have been going there enough now that in the future I think I shall say...with a slight tone of indifference in my voice..."the usual please"
. Referring to the .99 cent burger filled with everything extra that has been a lifesaver in terms of getting some real meat into me.
At $3 something for the food and all the water I could drink...it was a deal though it was a bit pricy relative to what I would have liked to have spent. But God knows my body needed the extra food.
I am getting rather sleepy just now and I still hope to spend some time reading the Bible and asking the Lord to speak to me through it...so I think I will sign off for the night.
God knows I need to keep my courage up...in Him, for I am starting to feel real run down from the relentless stress of what I have been going through and the generally poor diet I have been eating.
Have a great night everyone!
Carlos
PS. You know it's so nice to not have to put up with all the baseless and mean accusations of many out in the main part of this forum who seem to constantly be trying to get me to fit their image of what a guy like me doing the things I do should be like. Sometimes I start to get worn down by it. It's nice to have a corner of city-data where I can come and be myself without receiving so much flak either for my faith in God or for falling into the circumstances in which I find myself.
Among other things, it's a way for me to honor you...my reader, who might have an interest in following my "adventure" and for posterity in helping me remember what these times were like.
I certainly do not believe that these difficult times will last much longer and I would like to capture what I go through by writing daily about it.
It's hard for me to understand why anyone would want to follow my daily life as some seem to do by reading this blog though...I must admit...my daily life is certainly not typical and does make for some interesting reading. Once in a while
. Anyway...I had high hopes for my day that weren't quite realized. It's okay. I mean I did what I could but I just didn't make it to doing what I wanted to do.
I woke up and rather angrily decided that no matter what the city said about my not being able to go door to door to solicit that I was going to do it anyway.
The issue of whether the city or any city has a right to tell me that what is perfectly acceptable in the eyes of God is wrong or illegal to do such that if I follow the law that I will end up homeless...is a big one. An issue I won't go into fully here. At least not today.
But I was determined to go soliciting again today. No matter what.
I first had some peanut butter and jelly a la carte for breakast and then headed out to do some much needed laundry.
After my laundry was done I came back ready to wash myself (I take semi-showers that are a cross between a sponge bath and a real shower since I do not have money to get a propane refill for the hot water tank) and looked forward to putting on some fresh, clean clothes. Heading out to solicit in some far away places afterwards.
That's when my day started to go awry. The owner of the place I live at stopped by to respond to a couple of emails I sent him last night on the really bad internet connection I was experiencing.
He is a real nice guy but he tends to talk a lot and he kept talking and talking and I kept listening and listening...all along wondering when might be the best time to interrupt him and tell him I had to go. Which I eventually did.
But...he also offered to let me use a second wireless router he had in the house. I had been talking to him about ways to boost the signal out to the trailer and he had wondered if I could use that second router somehow.
Well...my saliva almost started drooling out of my mouth as I contemplated using the second router as a repeater/extender of the present internet signal coming from the 1st router inside the garage.
Perhaps I should not have done so but, instead of going out to find work somewhere...I spent the rest of the day trying to diagnose and fix the faulty internet connection I was experiencing.
Tracking down whether the problem was in the cable modem, router number 1, my laptop wireless card, or otherwise. And seeing if I could indeed use the second router as a repeater.
It turns out that I can indeed use the second router as a repeater but it will take flashing a new, 3rd party firmware onto the onboard router memory, to do it. Which will involve still more work and time...another day...though I won't spend all day at it like I did today.
I absolutely must have a good internet connection! I have no phone and make all calls through my computer using Skype. I check messages to my toll free number, email my friends and family, do research about various things, stay in touch with the pulse of humanity (huh?), upload news stories that I can get paid for, check bank card balances, and do many other such things...all through my computer.
Not to mention finding things like where I am living through craigslist, sending out resumes - which I hope to do with a couple of jobs I would like to apply for, and doing things like updating this here blog.
Without an internet connection I am like a duck out of water.
So...I spent all day literally working on the internet. It's still not fixed completely but it's getting there.
For dinner tonight...I absolutely splurged and had a .99 cent burger again...making sure to tell them to put everything extra in it that didn't cost extra and a pita taco something or other.
While eating my pita taco I half jokingly said to the girl cleaning the tables that I might not have their taco anymore since, like the mini burgers I had the other day, the taco had looked so BIG in the picture but had turned out to be so much smaller in real life. A bit of a disappointment though the few bites I got out of it where quite good.
I have been going there enough now that in the future I think I shall say...with a slight tone of indifference in my voice..."the usual please"
. Referring to the .99 cent burger filled with everything extra that has been a lifesaver in terms of getting some real meat into me. At $3 something for the food and all the water I could drink...it was a deal though it was a bit pricy relative to what I would have liked to have spent. But God knows my body needed the extra food.
I am getting rather sleepy just now and I still hope to spend some time reading the Bible and asking the Lord to speak to me through it...so I think I will sign off for the night.
God knows I need to keep my courage up...in Him, for I am starting to feel real run down from the relentless stress of what I have been going through and the generally poor diet I have been eating.
Have a great night everyone!
Carlos
PS. You know it's so nice to not have to put up with all the baseless and mean accusations of many out in the main part of this forum who seem to constantly be trying to get me to fit their image of what a guy like me doing the things I do should be like. Sometimes I start to get worn down by it. It's nice to have a corner of city-data where I can come and be myself without receiving so much flak either for my faith in God or for falling into the circumstances in which I find myself.
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Carlos, those who are your "following" MAY have genuine interest in your odyssey, and actually CARE whether you starve or are out on the streets... but then there are others who, if they search their hearts, and admit it, have a less altruistic motive. There are always those who derive some satisfaction out of watching the struggles of others.. and do nothing to help those people in need.
There are 500,000 registrants on this Forum, according to the top of the home page.
How many have become your 'brother' in the Lord?
And what does this tell you about our world, in general?
I have lived a long time, in many places, met all sorts of people, in all class levels...
but never seen such indifference, cloaked in a facade of interest, as I have with your situation.
I could say more, but it would not be prudent.
I John 2:10 "He that loves his brother, abides in the light, and there is no occasion of stumbling in him."
I John 2: 3 - 6
are synonymous with your life and times, right now. Let him who has an ear, hear.
Blessings,
Summertime
(and if you don't allow this on the blog, that is okay with me. We don't want any contention being displayed here..) lolPosted 01-28-2009 at 11:39 AM by Summertime
Updated 01-28-2009 at 11:41 AM by Summertime (to add a post script) -
It is not contention that I am against Summertime. It is contention that comes out of a wrong heart. That looks down on those less fortunate than ourselves and maligns them to prop up one's own image or to justify a misguided and exalted view of one's smug superiority.
Jesus Christ Himself had nothing, was nothing (in the eyes of the world with respect to wordly accomplishments), owned nothing of any significance, never went to the high falluting schools of his day, held any kind of prestigious degree, and did not win any spots on Pontius Pilates talk show. If you can believe it...He even slept on a rock for a pillow in the Garden of Gethsame. Many times.
I, for my part, have lived a life of more accomplishment and far more ease, from a wordly sense, than even Jesus did.
Yet...people...even Christians look down on me without realizing that in their response (or lack of) to me they reveal the depravity of their own spiritual condition. And the hypocritical nature of calling themselves by His fair name while telling me to go and be well...while doing nothing to help me in my time of need.
I am not writing this, nor have I ever posted anything on city-data, in order to have anyone send me money. A Christian who has become my friend lately has already offered me enough help to enable me to pay my rent on Saturday and some besides (something that I will post about more later this week).
I am saying this to highlight what a disgrace the North American Church is. Where only -one-, that's only -one-, just -one-, Christian offered to help me at all among the hundreds if not thousands who read my posts (if post reading counts here are to be believed).
As Jesus said to the leper who came back to thank him when healed of his leprosy...I often ask myself...where are the other ten? Or in my case the other hundreds and hundreds who have observed my plight from afar.
Some to be sure have offered words of encouragement. And for every such word I am deeply thankful. But when trying to find something to eat so as to continue to honor God by not relying on government welfare or having to go as with a hat in hand to a soup kitchen to see if they might have a little something better for me to eat...it would have been nice to have had someone other than the -one- offer to send me a package of cookies even.
But instead...I have been treated to a meal of insults and baseless accusations and for dessert a few put-downs thrown in from the public in general and indifference and silence on the part of Christians looking on (for the most part).
Unbelievable!
I do not feel sorry for myself, though undoubtedly some will accuse me of writing from that perspective too.
I write because I am angry. Angry at the Church of North America. This is not the first time I have encountered such indifference and lack of integrity between what the Christians say they believe and the works which prove their faith.
I have experienced far worse though this, my present circumstance, beats them all in terms of longetivity. I have never had it this tough for so long but like Job, who lost everything and I mean everything in this life, I too have learned to say "Blessed be the Name of the Lord" in the midst of very bad circumstances.
As you have treated the least of these my brethren...is not just a nice sounding phrase to extemporarily preach on within the hallowed halls of Churchiandom...it is at the core of who and where Jesus Christ is. Among the poor and downtrodden and those who see themselves in need and cry out to God for help.
Whose only hope is in God.
CarlosPosted 01-28-2009 at 12:40 PM by carlos123
