Waiting on God and some observations on faith...

I wanted to take a minute, while waiting for the timetable of rides and meetings to begin today that may ultimately result in my moving into a nice home, to express some things about faith in God that might be of encouragement to others of my brothers and sisters in Christ who might be facing their own impossible circumstances.

I have done all that I can do and now, as I sit here listening to worship music, it is truly in God's hands as to what the final outcome of all this will be.

If things don't work at this new home I will end up sleeping in a car. And if for some reason that does not work out I will end up finding a nice bush to sleep under.

Lots of things could have happen to be sure. Just like lots of things could have happened before when facing any number of other impossible circumstances in my life.

I feel in many respects at this moment like I did when waiting in the lounge of the airport in Canada waiting to board the plane that would take me to San Diego with about $400 in my pocket.

A city I had never been to.

To be picked up from the airport by a man I had never met and knew little about. To room in a room of his foreclosed property that I had never seen.

Two suitcases, a laptop, and a small backpack. Oh...and a camera strapped to my shoulders.

That's all I had then. And that's about all I have now.

At least on the surface.

But in truth I have far more resources than can be imagined in the person of God!!

And if I keep my eyes on Him and trust in Him walking forward in faith I believe things will turn out okay no matter what happens.

The idea of not knowing once again where I will go (other than an address)...of never having been there before, of not knowing my new landlord (if everything works out), of having little in the way of a backup plan if things don't work out is nerve racking from a natural standpoint.

It's like I am walking forward blind but for the fact that my eyes are on God.

The results of such faith when God inspires it in me and when I chose to walk in it are absolutely incredible.

The results are no postive thinking. They are not because I am such a great guy who people everywhere are willing to help at the drop of a hat.

Not at all.

I deserve nothing from God and quite frankly, in many respects I am a hard guy to get along with. My wife could probably testify to that fact if she was willing to do so.

God is changing me and I am a much easier and nicer guy to be around these days than I have ever been but I have altogether too much of my old self laying around inside me to claim that I have arrived at being the kind of person that people would just naturally be inclined to help.

But God, my God, is a God of grace and mercy. A God who delights in doing good to those who look to Him and wait upon Him.

You know I was thinking the other day...that God's provision for me in my circumstances is not at all dependant on what I do.

Let me explain...

The Bible says that God provides for the birds of the air and the lilies of the field. That He provides for them despite the fact that they do not sow or work to store provision into barns. Nor do they sow and weave fine clothes for themselves.

They simply are. And God, the one who created them, takes care of them just as He will do for each of us if we will but trust Him and act accordingly. Stepping out where He would have us step out and walking forward even if our knees are about to buckle from the trembling at our uncertain circumstances.

We are of far more importance than the birds and lilies of the field! And God will do no less for us than he does for them.

If we have sinned it up and blasphemed God and gone our own way in life and find ourselves in need...but repent and turn to God in faith in the 11th hour...God is predisposed through His wondrous mercy and graciousness and forgiveness of our sins through Jesus Christ to incline His ear to our plea for help...and to help us.

At least that has been and continues to be my experience.

God's grace in Christ is boundless. You cannot outsin the grace of God. A grace that is made readily available to all who call on Him in truth.

And so I sit here waiting, listening to worship music, waiting on my God to provide for me once again.

Whatever happens I know that He is with me and that I will never lose Him. That He will go with me wherever I go.

That is a comfort in the midst of impossible circumstances that few in this world know. A comfort that means more to me than all the money in the world!

Thank you Lord!

Carlos