..It wasn't until the Lord led me to this forum...that I realized the magnitude of the work that must be done...(first and most importantly for me)...in myself...and then secondly and just as important...in others. God led me here to teach me, and His "tools" for teaching me were and are, every single solitary one of you out there. My very first lesson was: Love-101...He knew I needed to learn to love His way...unconditionally...compassionately...showing the mercy He showed to me...with grace. Before He led me here...my fervent, tearful prayers were to God to give me His heart for people...to let me feel what His heart feels, to hurt for the things that hurt Him...and to have joy for the things that give Him joy...
...I had no idea what I was asking for...
...the pain is great..the joy...unspeakable. I cry a lot now. With this new heart, comes great sensitivity for other peoples' pain and their needs...so much pain...so many needs...I can't even begin to imagine how Father feels...Oh God...the Love that you have for us...JESUS!!...the Love You have for us...Amazing Love!!!...
...To have the Love of God implanted into your heart...makes everything else in life insignificant. So, the cost?...IS everything...this love makes all the temporary things around you-things that you used to think were important, pale in comparison to eternal things like salvation; a soul saved; an empty belly given food; a thirsty tongue given water to drink; a loving embrace; a loving word. ..Having His perspective, seeing His Son's face in the faces of every human being you look upon...I ask you...What is more important than this? Nothing...No-thing. In this...I have found freedom...
...liberty, the kind that the Bible talks about. Where all the "things" around you that used to be important, no longer have a hold on you...it takes away the care and concern for things that really have nothing to do with anything. Brings to "light" what His Word tells me about, not taking anything with us when we die...so..store up treasures in heaven..where they are everlasting...what freedom, to know that everything that is important, the eternal things, God our Father has already taken care of for us...if we will receive them...then, even the thought of death, is in it's own way, a liberating experience!...I say...What freedom!!..Hallelujuah!! Death doesn't even have a hold of you any longer!!...all fear is gone!! THIS is FREEDOM!! I'm ready...for what...I really have no "earthly" clue...but I'm ready. God has me adding up the numbers now...He has placed me deep in the middle of His will...He is my Source...
...and I want to serve Him...I want to please Him, so I will continue with His Spirit dwelling inside of me, to go forward wherever He leads me to go, sharing the Good News of His salvation, and continue learning and allowing Him to strengthen me in His beautiful ways...pressing on toward the Mark of His calling in Christ Jesus...I love you all very much. To God be all the glory forever. Amen.