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through out my life i have been spiritual. I do not believe in hell what so ever. Because God gave us free will and he knows our future and whats going to happen.
Also my whole i have been battling depression, learning disability, outcast and so forth. Well i kept going to doctors and kept telling my friends my problems.
Well one day b4 work i just has enough battling depression.... i was going around my house praying to God to forgive for what i am about 2 to because i cannot take it anymore. i have a big family (5 older brothers) i am the only girl i know they cared about but i didnt know that much.
Well i kept crying and kept reading psalms 23 and i told him just to take me to heaven and that i have no reason to live anymore.
For months i had an image in my head i would overdose on tynol pm. Well I finally took about 50 or something like that and i was crying thinking who is going to really miss me. For years i thought about suicide.
Well after i took the pills my mom came over becuz she called and i never picked up and she came over at 5:00pm and she never comes over at that time she rush right in and i was in my bed and my mom was panicking asking me if i was okay i told i was sick and that i am going to bed and she kept pestering me did i call in and i said no and then she found the rest of the pills and asked did i overdose and i said yes so she went straight out to the to get my brother who lives down the road and he came running calling 911 and then i couldnt hardly walk. Well later on that night i woke in the hospital and for the next 2 days the xrays were all clear and i was a lil mad becuz i didnt succeed and the doctor explained to me if my mom never came over it would had been a slow death. My family thought it was a miracle and my mom said she was outside feeding the animals and she sensed something was wrong.
Now i realized now how good of a life i have and how thankful that i am surrounded by family and now my brothers keeps tabs on me.
I also went to one the psychiatric wards and i made some friends and they truely helped me and now i am getting therapy and i feel at peace.
I'm so glad you've come to realize just how wanted and loved you are..glad that your mom could sense that you were in trouble...also very glad to hear you are now at peace..life IS good, and you ARE here, so embrace it and get the most joy from your life that you can...
through out my life i have been spiritual. I do not believe in hell what so ever. Because God gave us free will and he knows our future and whats going to happen.
Also my whole i have been battling depression, learning disability, outcast and so forth. Well i kept going to doctors and kept telling my friends my problems.
Well one day b4 work i just has enough battling depression.... i was going around my house praying to God to forgive for what i am about 2 to because i cannot take it anymore. i have a big family (5 older brothers) i am the only girl i know they cared about but i didnt know that much.
Well i kept crying and kept reading psalms 23 and i told him just to take me to heaven and that i have no reason to live anymore.
For months i had an image in my head i would overdose on tynol pm. Well I finally took about 50 or something like that and i was crying thinking who is going to really miss me. For years i thought about suicide.
Well after i took the pills my mom came over becuz she called and i never picked up and she came over at 5:00pm and she never comes over at that time she rush right in and i was in my bed and my mom was panicking asking me if i was okay i told i was sick and that i am going to bed and she kept pestering me did i call in and i said no and then she found the rest of the pills and asked did i overdose and i said yes so she went straight out to the to get my brother who lives down the road and he came running calling 911 and then i couldnt hardly walk. Well later on that night i woke in the hospital and for the next 2 days the xrays were all clear and i was a lil mad becuz i didnt succeed and the doctor explained to me if my mom never came over it would had been a slow death. My family thought it was a miracle and my mom said she was outside feeding the animals and she sensed something was wrong.
Now i realized now how good of a life i have and how thankful that i am surrounded by family and now my brothers keeps tabs on me.
I also went to one the psychiatric wards and i made some friends and they truely helped me and now i am getting therapy and i feel at peace.
Thank you for sharing your story. I wish you continued peace.
through out my life i have been spiritual. I do not believe in hell what so ever. Because God gave us free will and he knows our future and whats going to happen.
Also my whole i have been battling depression, learning disability, outcast and so forth. Well i kept going to doctors and kept telling my friends my problems.
Well one day b4 work i just has enough battling depression.... i was going around my house praying to God to forgive for what i am about 2 to because i cannot take it anymore. i have a big family (5 older brothers) i am the only girl i know they cared about but i didnt know that much.
Well i kept crying and kept reading psalms 23 and i told him just to take me to heaven and that i have no reason to live anymore.
For months i had an image in my head i would overdose on tynol pm. Well I finally took about 50 or something like that and i was crying thinking who is going to really miss me. For years i thought about suicide.
Well after i took the pills my mom came over becuz she called and i never picked up and she came over at 5:00pm and she never comes over at that time she rush right in and i was in my bed and my mom was panicking asking me if i was okay i told i was sick and that i am going to bed and she kept pestering me did i call in and i said no and then she found the rest of the pills and asked did i overdose and i said yes so she went straight out to the to get my brother who lives down the road and he came running calling 911 and then i couldnt hardly walk. Well later on that night i woke in the hospital and for the next 2 days the xrays were all clear and i was a lil mad becuz i didnt succeed and the doctor explained to me if my mom never came over it would had been a slow death. My family thought it was a miracle and my mom said she was outside feeding the animals and she sensed something was wrong.
Now i realized now how good of a life i have and how thankful that i am surrounded by family and now my brothers keeps tabs on me.
I also went to one the psychiatric wards and i made some friends and they truely helped me and now i am getting therapy and i feel at peace.
I am glad you are still here, Hourglass. It took courage for you to to reach out, and your family gets credit for helping you too.
Wow hourglass, your story just made my day. I'm so glad you didn't succeed. This is scary for you though, b/c now you have a second chance and He has a plan for you. Just listen for the next little while to see what your next step should be.
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