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Originally Posted by Ruth4Truth
OP, I was going to say, that I recall your saying in the past, that he's not always there, when you go to the open mics. So--go. Enjoy.
What a horrible thing for him to say to someone, who's been grieving recently! Take that as a HUGE red flag! Avoid this guy! He's abusive, and has a serious personality disorder. Disengage, stop emailing with him, block, block, block! Then go on with your life.
Best wishes.
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Yes, you are absolutely right. After I got that email from him, of course I never answered. It was so extreme, so out of control. He has been like that before, but this time he attacked me where I am vulnerable. It showed me how vicious his rage can be.
So far, it seems like he is avoiding some of the events where he knows I will be. But eventually we might end up in the same place. I will try not to worry about that. Right now, I feel so glad to be free of him, and to know I can sing my songs without him.
Mr. Madd hardly ever wanted to learn any of my songs. And he didn't seem to like it if I sang them without him. So that was kind of a trap for me -- I had all these songs and hardly any chance to let anyone hear them.
I spent my whole life being afraid to sing in public, being afraid to let anyone hear my songs. I don't want to be like that any more!
When I saw Mr. Madd tying to undermine my confidence, I knew I had to get away. That was before all this happened.
What an ugly soul a person must have, to want to prevent someone from being happy and confident.
And of course I try to think of anything I could have done to cause him to hate me so much. I really was making a sincere effort to not to do anything that could possibly enrage him. Definitely walking on eggshells. I had known him for a couple of years, so I had learned a lot of the things I was not allowed to do or say. But he still found a way to get angry.