Gab, it's really, really great that you recognize this:
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Originally Posted by Gab12
I know I am going from person to person to fill a void and I think about if I had daughters what I would teach them and how I would raise them to be confident and not be super reliant on a man. I'm afraid of raising daughters who will be victims of DV because I know I have put up with a ton in dating guys.. stuff like hitting or pressure to do stuff I didn't want to.
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Unfortunately this:
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Originally Posted by Gab12
Of course I wouldn't want to teach them that but I would hope that being married I would be more secure and that would make me more stable and able to raise kids. ... hopefully I will find a job immediately after school and continue to live alone (or with a SO)
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... indicates that you still believe that "being married" will make you secure.
It won't.
Marriage is not a magic cure. It never makes problems "better," and often makes them worse.
You HAVE to sort out your self-esteem problems now, before you date anyone seriously.