Thank you all for your answers, it's really helping me to understand my situation.
You were right about me not loving myself first, I don't have any self confidence. I hate myself because I'm really shy, clumsy, and I also hate my physical appearance.
I don't mind being single, I even enjoy it. But there is so much pressure around from family, friends, always asking why I don't date. When I say it's just not my thing they get upset because they think I don't trust them enough to introduce any secret boyfriend I could have.
I think I might just need to stop thinking about it, because forcing myself really is not the solution.
Thanks again for your time and advices !