Hello !
(First of all, I gotta say this is really difficult for me talk about that, and I also know there already are threads about tonsils stones)
I suffer from bad breath, I've been aware of this for quite a long time (at least 4 years) but I only dicovered that it came from my tonsils a few months ago.
I've always had trouble when it comes to self-confidence and all, but I must say it got a lot worse when my suspicions about having bad breath came true...I now hate myself, and despise myself, I think I'm filthy and have now lost the little self-esteem I may have had.
I decided a few months ago that I couldn't go to school anymore because I simply didn't want to subject the others to my bad breath: disguting myself is enough. My parents then sent me to see a shrink, and it turned out, to my parents' astonishment, that I was severely depressed, the skrink questionned me, and i spent hours there, but i've never been able to talk about my bad breath, I felt kinda stupid.
But then I looked on the net and realized that this trouble concerns quite a few people. Unfortunately I don't trust anyone. I don't want to talk about this with my bestfriend, and my parents already have so many troubles to deal with that they are just gonna laugh at the triviality of my own troubles. So I'm now more than ever all alone and feel more depressed than ever. At the same time I'm still fighting and try to have the opportunity to have free-bad-breath-life.
I'm 16 and I don't know who to turn to, I'm lost and have dark thoughts, but at the same time I have hope to be able to get pass that, otherwise I wouldn't be posting a message. I know I can do this, I've had accutane, and am now able to live with a depressive mother, and depressive brothers. However I know that this is my last resort, I do not want to go on living if I can't get rid of my tonsils.(Like the shrink told me, "living without speaking to others is not life, Life means going out not staying alone")
I've always felt like I could handle everything on my own, because I want to be strong, but i now realized that has gotten me nowhere and i'm here to say: I need your advice ! Who would you turn to? What would you do? Would it be possible to remove my tonsils? (I'm so lost
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Thanks by advance !
Ps: Sorry for my english, I'm just learning this langage and felt it was a lot easier to confide in you in an other langage than my native one (it hurts a bit less in english, perhaps because the same way I tend to be ruder in english, I'm not entirely aware of what I'm saying )
Ps 2: I don't know if i can post this here, sorry (depression goes into "mental health" so...)