Is it possible to NOT love your own children?

[fallingwater]

This is a 2 yr old thread but if the OP still is reading I can share that I have the same type of relationship with my father except I am more like one of your siblings. I dont put the effort in anymore. My parents divorced when I was a teen and dad basically moved on. He had been having an affair with my step mom for a while so when he got busted he moved in with her and carried on his own life. She had 4 children and he basically viewed them as his kids. If I go to his house, its filled with photos of her kids. Its like he didnt have a life before her. My siblings try a lot more with dad than I do. I pretty much gave up in my 20's. I figured it was his problem not mine. IF I'm in the mood I might see him about once a year but other than that I dont really care to. If something should happen to him tomorrow I would feel a little sad but Im comfortable in my decision that I wont have regrets or anything. My step siblings dont care for me. I didn't accept their momma right away so that makes me evil. On the occasion I would see them at Christmas etc because I felt obligated to drop by, they were never welcoming. My one step sister will try to make a snide comment towards me when she can. I moved away from my family about 5 yrs ago. My dad has no idea where I live. I have offered for him to visit. His exact words "Nah, I have no desire." He is clueless on how hurtful that is. I stopped offering and like I said IF Im in the mood I might stop by his house when I go home to visit other family. The last time I saw him, he had downsized from a large home to a much smaller one after he retired. He was being pissy and said the kids dont come around anymore. I loved it when he said kids meaning his step kids whom are all grown adults and their children. I also learned that they owe my dad and step mom thousands of dollars which they have no intention of ever paying back. OOOOh well.