The reason I ask is I feel like I can’t have it all right now. I am at a fork in the road sort of speak I can keep on doing what I am doing now or I can make my dream become a reality. Here is some back ground on my lack of dating and what not.
Due to many factors, I have been pretty far behind the curve when it comes to relationships and sex. Did casual dating a few times when I was in high school/college (as in we go out 1-2 times just for fun, never get physical at all) but didn't date in any form for most of my teen years due to personal issues (mostly due to massive shyness/social-anxiety problems) through school, I was socially awkward and never fit in with anyone's circle. No one would invite me in to their group.
I've managed to turn things around a bit and can talk to anyone. I am a different person now I just had to look at this way no one cares. I did not date until college and went on about 10 to 12 dates with different woman so asking a girl out is not my problem.
The longest I have dated the same girl was probably for about 6 months or so and it wasn't even anything serious. I t was a FB kind of thing so when she was done it was over. This is my only sexual partner I know sad for my age but it is what it is. To make matters worse she just kind of laid there and did not do anything there was no passion at all. I feel like I should of pick someone I liked and some one that liked me back.
Now that I am turning 30 (sad) next month I have two options.
One is to work my dead end retail job and in ten years I can make 20 bucks an hour. Sure I have a job, car, and my own place no roommates. I do not make that much money 19.00 an hour is not livable wage and sure as hell can’t feed a family when I am just above the poverty line. If one wanted to live in the city a studio apartment will run you about $1,300 a month and if you wanted to live outside the city a one bedroom apartment will run you 800 to 1k a month.
As for my job it is NOT challenging or rewarding and a cave man can do it. There is no wear to move up in this company unless you want to sale your soul for a few more hundred dollars. I need to break the family trend of workaholics and working two jobs for lame pay and no family life.
That being said If I end up working retail I am just going to give up on the whole idea of meet a girl and starting a family and having kids. I just be the crazy cat guy with 13 cats and eat cans of dog food for dinner.
My next option one that I am going with right now is going back to college.
That being said I am still going to work full time and have been taking class at a community college and get my PRE-NURSING Associate of Applied Science Degree and then transfer over to a four year college to get my Bachelor of Science in Nursing.
My main source of inspiration to become a nurse comes from an innate desire to help people and care for them in times of need. I am also a person who thrives on being challenged and I always have new goals to achieve, so nursing suits me as few other careers offer as much diversity and learning opportunities. I am a caring, empathetic, calm, patient, flexible, a good listener, and like to help people and empathetic .On top of that I pay attention to details and good at solving problems and finding solutions.
I can move up into other jobs at the hospital and feel like I am working on something which is good for me.
I still have to
finish College prerequisites and have a few before I can apply for the program.
Once in the nursing program it is 8am till 5pm Monday -Friday. On top of that I have about 100 to 200 pages to read a night.
Do not underestimate the difficulty level of nursing school...
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I feel I might not have time to date much but I am fine with it.
When I am done with school I feel like women will tend to avoid inexperienced guys, and generally for good reason. When thinking of someone with little to no dating experience, more than likely there's the image of an unattractive coach potato with no life, which never interacts with women and has no social skills. It's assumed that if a guy is attractive, smart, funny, has a good direction in his life, he's a catch and probably has plenty of dating experience. But what if that's not the case and the handsome guy actually doesn't have much dating history? Would this still be enough to send most women running?
I'd say that I'm a pretty attractive guy. I'm fit, smart, funny, and very ambitious. I have pic in profile to prove that I am not ugly LOL. To be honest woman tell me if I wanted a GF all I have to do is ask.
I worry if I finish college and start dating woman will think there is something wrong with me and not want to date me. Not too many women want to teach a guy anything in the bedroom.
I am going to try to get out there and meet woman and have some fun .