Did I send mixed signals? I know immature but curious...

[Kin Atoms]

To the OP: without addressing the underlying issues, you will remain engaged in an interpersonal script of games and confusion that will leave another potentially good man out of reach and you reacting confused and dismayed. How about getting help while in this relationship, and knock off your interpersonal experiments that are clearly not working for you? More here are aware of your history, which is interesting given how this thread begins. Not a pattern? Not a clue.

[NilaJones]

Working on your issues is not going to be effective until you interview and try out several counselors, and find the right one for you. Just trying one who was not a good fit for you and saying, 'counseling doesn't work' doesn't cut it.

And neither does trying to do this without counseling.