I would like some guidance (Seattle, Tacoma: lease, insurance, school)

[danivixen09]

I need a place to vent. I require feedback and advice. I am lacking guidance and losing my strength.

Let's start with a rundown of my life and who I am and how I got here.
Adopted at age 2 and separated from my brother bc my schizo mother and mentally incapable uncle couldn't care for me.
I was in a really crazy living situation. Abuse after abuse.
Never having peace. I have bi polar disorder and others things affecting my life. Suicide was attempted. I finished out in foster care.
I have been the door mat in almost every relationship I've held in my life. I have no family. No insurance, no car, I can't even drive.
A few years ago I met the love of my life. The greatest friend. I love him. I worship him. **** it. I do.
Our roommates have turned into something completely different and it has only been a month. Everything we thought we knew about them was a big joke. They have really started ****ing us over. In desperation we signed a year lease and it has been one month. There is drug addiction, cheating, lies, pregnancy, stupid and dangerous decisions that affect all of us.
I just lost my job and things are getting harder and harder. We have zero money for food and rent is due Tuesday. I'm terrified.
I tried to kill myself this week. Again
He stopped me. Broke down in front of me. Pleaded with me. Opened up to me. We are closer than ever.
We are both on the same page. Ready for marriage and researching all the the legal benefits including medical benefits and rights.
His family turned on us bc we didn't fit the mold. I am a mixedd female and he is a white male. We are both open minded techinical and artsy.
His passion is car mechanics and performance. I wish I could put him through school. Take care of him. I wish we weren't stuck.
Ideally, we'd like to get married and move west to Tacoma, WA. I'd pursue an internship as a peer counselor and enroll in being certified within the same year. I want to help others like myself. Understand others. I, myself, would benefit greatly. I really need some closure in my trauma.
I'm tired of feeling like we're going to be in the streets when all we want to do is good. We only want to help mediate, educate, and open minds. I'd be such a strong leader, and he has such great potential.
I don't know how to work the system. I don't know how to do much of anything really. I just know I want to continue living. For the future of myself, our relationship, my love, and the family we will build that we never ever had the chance to have growing up.
We'd be amazing parents. Amazing people. We work hard and have ambitions and drive. If we could just get some sort of guidance. Somebody help.
How do we move forward when we can't save a penny. I know this is probably the least traumatizing my life has ever been, but my extreme emotions and great worry helps me none. Not having any family or friends beside my love doesn't help either.

[pw72]

OK, first this kind of thread will be met by many posters here as either a joke, or something they don't want to get involved with.

I'm not sure, so my instincts tell me if it is real, you need to get to a community mental health center, if you have not already. Most of these are free for those who have no other means. If you don't, you will probably be left out by society. I sincerely hope that doesn't happen to you.

[Seacove]

The OP should get help and support, but this is where people banter about the Seattle metro area. Many times a change of location can really make a difference, but OP, if you can't pay rent, how are you going to move 3000 miles away? Tacoma is less expensive and you can post in the Washington forum which includes Tacoma, but there is a not a Social Service that relocates people and provides services while they repair their lives. A lot of people could benefit from that but we don't have it. I really hope you get the help you need and wish you the best.