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I have desperately been trying to get out of Yuma, AZ for a long time now. I have been praying and crying out to God for a job in Indiana but no answer and a lot of rejection letters. I miss my family and I am always sick all the time from severe allergies due to dust, pesticides, and field burning. I missed 15 days of work last year because my allergies were so bad. I basically have no life here in Yuma other than watching movies and tv. I want to be out of Yuma so bad that it is painful but can't leave until I find a job. I am just wondering if God is trying to punish for something awful I did.
I have desperately been trying to get out of Yuma, AZ for a long time now. I have been praying and crying out to God for a job in Indiana but no answer and a lot of rejection letters. I miss my family and I am always sick all the time from severe allergies due to dust, pesticides, and field burning. I missed 15 days of work last year because my allergies were so bad. I basically have no life here in Yuma other than watching movies and tv. I want to be out of Yuma so bad that it is painful but can't leave until I find a job. I am just wondering if God is trying to punish for something awful I did.
Psa 23:1 ¶ [[A Psalm of David.]] The LORD [is] my shepherd; I shall not want.
Psa 23:2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
Psa 23:3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Psa 23:4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou [art] with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Psa 23:5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Psa 23:6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
God doesn't "punish his children for something awful I did". God did that to Jesus. Through Jesus we have Gods love: Psalm 25:7
Remember not the sins of my youth and my rebellious ways; according to your love remember me, for you are good, O LORD.
John 10:10
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. Matthew 11:28
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and Iwillgiveyou rest.
God however uses trials to bring us closer to him.
I know how you're feeling. I have been wanting to go back to the Mid West from AZ but have been unable to, many of the same reasons you mentioned. It can be very frustrating. But then I need to remember,
Psalm 37:7
Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes. Isaiah 55:8
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD Matthew 6:26
Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?
A old hymn I learned long ago for times like these:
What a friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilage it is to carry,
Everything to God in prayer.
Oh, what peace we often forfeit,
Oh, what needles pain we bear,
All because we do not carry -
Everything to God in prayer.
Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged-
Take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness-
Take it to the Lord in prayer.
Are we weak and heavy laden,
Cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Saviour, still our refuge-
Take it to the Lord in prayer
Do your friends despise, forsake you?
Take it to the Lord in prayer.
In his arms he'll take and shield you;
You will find a solace there.
God absolutely does NOT want you to be miserable. You have to remember that sometimes God's answer is no, he is not a machine where we just enter what we want and receive it no matter what.
Sometimes, what you feel is best for you, and what God knows is best for you are two very different things. You must trust in his plan, and the more trust and faith you put into his plan for your life, the clearer things will appear, and the more that light at the end of the tunnel will shine.
Hang in there, I know it must be a difficult time for you right now. And last but not least continue to try and do what you can to improve your situation, where there is a will there is a way.
I have desperately been trying to get out of Yuma, AZ for a long time now. I have been praying and crying out to God for a job in Indiana but no answer and a lot of rejection letters. I miss my family and I am always sick all the time from severe allergies due to dust, pesticides, and field burning. I missed 15 days of work last year because my allergies were so bad. I basically have no life here in Yuma other than watching movies and tv. I want to be out of Yuma so bad that it is painful but can't leave until I find a job. I am just wondering if God is trying to punish for something awful I did.
I'm very sorry for your suffering, Bluebelt. I'm going to put a different spin on this, because sometimes God wants us to ACT, and then trust.
You say you have family in Indiana....can you stay with them for a while? Do you have the means to go ahead and pack up and go? I understand the fear of leaving a job and going to nothing, but this is where the ultimate faith test comes in. God wants to simply know sometimes that we have enough faith to completely trust in Him to provide. Maybe He's not saying "you can't leave".....maybe He's saying "Leave, and trust in Me".
I'm a bit of a gypsy, so this may not seem reasonable to some people. But I have always taken the leap to move and quit jobs when I was extremely unhappy and having complete faith that God will provide something new and better because I have put it ALL in His hands.
Just my perspective, for what it's worth. I've gotten REALLY good at packing.
I have desperately been trying to get out of Yuma, AZ for a long time now. I have been praying and crying out to God for a job in Indiana but no answer and a lot of rejection letters. I miss my family and I am always sick all the time from severe allergies due to dust, pesticides, and field burning. I missed 15 days of work last year because my allergies were so bad. I basically have no life here in Yuma other than watching movies and tv. I want to be out of Yuma so bad that it is painful but can't leave until I find a job. I am just wondering if God is trying to punish for something awful I did.
That post is the first on CDF to actually make me cry. I have struggled (and "struggled" is the word) with the same issue, here in Albany, Georgia. I've alienated friends, made my husband's life a living hell, and made myself miserable as well. Albany isn't going to change, but I will have to. I still want to get out--not just to ANYWHERE, because there are worse places--but to move back home to north Alabama. I know, a lot of people hate Alabama, but home is home.
God does not hate you, nor does He hate me. Did he hate the apostle Paul? Is that why Paul was in prison? I don't think so. I have to learn contentment, and you will probably need to do so too. That is said with no smugness whatsoever; you're probably doing better at learning contentment than I am. I am having to learn the hard way that our circumstances CANNOT be the bottom line. They just can't. People have been faithful to God in prison, in concentration camps, in cancer wards, in funeral homes. God loves them like He loves you and me.
I haven't seen it on this thread, but a lot of well-meaning people will tell you that "God just wants you to be happy". Well, He doesn't want us to be unhappy, but our holiness means a lot more to Him than our happiness, and sometimes the latter has to suffer a bit to enhance the former. My holiness has taken some direct hits lately, I can tell you. Happiness has a lot more to do with circumstance than joy. Joy is something inalienable. Contentment is not having everything you could ever want. If that were the case, none of us would ever be content anywhere. The test of contentment is finding it in difficult circumstances.
I have to take it on faith that I (AND YOU) are being refined, and it's not pleasant, but the result will be. I feel for you, because I honestly am going through the same thing. I'm so sorry you're dealing with it too. But rest assured that God does NOT hate you. God loves you as much as He loves me. For all we know, He is using this time to urge you to seek Him out. Something good can--and will, if you let it--come from this. Please keep trying. I'm going to.
Last edited by FlourChild; 06-28-2008 at 09:14 AM..
I have desperately been trying to get out of Yuma, AZ for a long time now. I have been praying and crying out to God for a job in Indiana but no answer and a lot of rejection letters. I miss my family and I am always sick all the time from severe allergies due to dust, pesticides, and field burning. I missed 15 days of work last year because my allergies were so bad. I basically have no life here in Yuma other than watching movies and tv. I want to be out of Yuma so bad that it is painful but can't leave until I find a job. I am just wondering if God is trying to punish for something awful I did.
No I do not believe God is trying to punish you. Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord, they are plans for good and not for disaster go give you a future and a hope". This has become "my verse" since I lost my job in 2004.
Isaiah 40:31 " But those who wait on the Lord will find new strength. They will fly high on wings like eagles. The will run and not grow weary. The will walk and not faint".
When you feel that life is crushing you and you cannot go another step, remember that you can all upon God to renew your strength.
Great reference to Paul being in prison.
I do think sometimes God allows us to be in tough situations to teach us valuable qualities that we can pass on to others. But sometimes like someone said(day of the Lord) you have to do what you can. I agree that moving in with relatives might be a good decision.
I have a friend who is in an abusive relationship. She can't get out until she sells her home and it has been on the market for four years. She asks me all the time why God is not solving this for her. I don't have the answers but to say that God knows her situation and will not put her in a situation too difficult for her to bear.
It is one of the things I hope we will understand when we get to Heaven...why certain things happened. The verse about seeing in the mirror dimly and then we will know, helps me to hope at some point we will see the whole picture.
I have to believe he is the Potter and I am the clay. Only He knows the purposes for our lives sometimes. My trust has to be in Him alone.
I have desperately been trying to get out of Yuma, AZ for a long time now. I have been praying and crying out to God for a job in Indiana but no answer and a lot of rejection letters. I miss my family and I am always sick all the time from severe allergies due to dust, pesticides, and field burning. I missed 15 days of work last year because my allergies were so bad. I basically have no life here in Yuma other than watching movies and tv. I want to be out of Yuma so bad that it is painful but can't leave until I find a job. I am just wondering if God is trying to punish for something awful I did.
You are not being punished. On the other hand, Arizona in the summer is hot as...
Seriously though, you will get back to your family sooner or later. Just keep plugging away.
I have desperately been trying to get out of Yuma, AZ for a long time now. I have been praying and crying out to God for a job in Indiana but no answer and a lot of rejection letters. I miss my family and I am always sick all the time from severe allergies due to dust, pesticides, and field burning. I missed 15 days of work last year because my allergies were so bad. I basically have no life here in Yuma other than watching movies and tv. I want to be out of Yuma so bad that it is painful but can't leave until I find a job. I am just wondering if God is trying to punish for something awful I did.
Sometimes I believe God separates us from all things, people, places, to grow and trust in Him. Could this possibly be what He is desiring for you in this place and time of your life.
There was a time in my life God had led us to a place to live and we were there for fourteen years.
In the beginning I hated it there and finely I gave up hating and seeking Him and the reason He led us there. I grewing so deeply in Him. It was a stepping stone to draw me closer to Him.
Then He took us away from that place only to experience that He had been preparing me.
Through what I learned in the place I hated brought wonderful blessings in His grace for the next step and process of His purpose and plan.
Take this time and seek His face and find the grace He has give you there. For everything that comes to a child of God is to strengthen them in His love and mercy to lead other's to His glory.
This is the scripture the Lord gave me that kept me in that place He led me and strengthen me in His love:
Jeremiah 29:7
And seek the peace of the city where I have caused you to be carried away captive, and pray to the Lord for it; for in its peace you will have peace.
He makes everything beautiful in His time.
Last edited by Cyber Munchkin; 06-29-2008 at 08:57 AM..
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I miss my family and I am always sick all the time from severe allergies due to dust, pesticides, and field burning. I missed 15 days of work last year because my allergies were so bad. I basically have no life here in Yuma other than watching movies and tv. I want to be out of Yuma so bad that it is painful but can't leave until I find a job. I am just wondering if God is trying to punish for something awful I did.
I've gotten REALLY good at packing.
The verse about seeing in the mirror dimly and then we will know, helps me to hope at some point we will see the whole picture.
