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Originally Posted by Katana49
My mother died unexpectedly 6 months ago, today has been hard. Been staying off of FB completely, as all I saw today were multiple postings about Mother's Day from everyone.
Every holiday, birthday, etc, since she died has been rough. I hope this doesn't last forever, it really takes it out of you.
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I am so sorry. When it happens suddenly, it's almost surreal. It does get better, though it seems like it never will.
My mom died of a massive heart attack 5 years ago. I talked to her on the phone about 12 hours before she died. It took me a good year to accept that she was gone and it wasn't until 2-3 years after that I started to dream about her again. It was like I couldn't accept her in my dreams until I accepted she was gone.
Fortunately, because my mom was older (she was 84 when she passed), I knew she wasn't going to be with us forever, so for the 5+ years leading up to her death, she and I went on many weekend trips and we took a few vacations with my dad, her, my husband and me to some places that she wanted to visit at least once or one more time. She wasn't always easy to travel with (I'm sure I wasn't either), but I knew I wouldn't regret not spending enough time with her after she died.
Every once in a while I want to pick up the phone to share something that happened that day, and then remember she's not there to call anymore. That's when I feel that drop in my gut once again.