I have an anxiety disorder. About two weeks ago I had an “episode” that lasted several days. It wasn’t pretty. I described it in my last blog entry. I have spent the last two weeks in a state of recovery. Four days ago I felt good enough to go to work for a half day. I think being busy helped. A couple of days ago I remember thinking that I was starting to feel pretty good again. That afternoon I went out by myself on a hike. The next morning I felt the anxiety again, but as the day went along,...

I suffer from GAD or General Anxiety Disorder. I have always considered my disorder a mild version, but it is clearly there intruding into my life.

In my case there are several facets to my disorder that are unusual. First, driving a car makes it worse. The disorder first hit me when I was on a trip in a car and it remains the biggest problem for me. I use cognitive therapy to help me get through it. I have not found a suitable medication other than Xanax, which is more a short-term...

I come to this website several times a week. Sometimes I write my goofy thoughts into this blog. Other times I will post in the forum about religion or some social matter. And now and then I will say something concerning romance. This site’s Relationships folder is the second most active, behind only Politics and Other Controversies.

Romantic relationships can be scary, tricky, and often agonizing things. I would know. In fact, I will now submit a rather lengthy blog entry, written...

On Wednesday evening I attended a sporting event... well, sort of. My boyfriend, Steve, played in a basketball game and I was one of a handful of spectators sitting in some bleachers. Steve is in some kind of recreational league. I think it might be a league for older guys because none of the players were particularly young. Steve is 52. Even though I do not know much about the game, I could tell that I was not watching high level basketball. Still, they were competing. Once or twice a referee’s...

I visited a girlfriend yesterday. She is married to an attorney. They live in this really nice, relatively new house. It is decorated very neatly. My friend has selected a lot of light colors. There is a cream-colored sofa. Upon the sofa are a couple of bright red pillows with white tassels along the seams. There is a matching chair nearby. Along one wall is a whitish china closet displaying porcelain white cups and saucers. The carpet is an off-white in color, and it is plush. The walls are in...