Favourite things,girlish and wild,the magnitude of magic

Well I was really longing for my new blog/journal yesterday I just wanted a pretty header,more space,a beautiful romantic look.I've been planning for my journey to the Viennese like cafe and I'm going to stop at this place nearby that also sells florentine papers,stationary and journals it looks very classical,wooden and charming in there,I just have a penchant for everything old world.How I wish I were in Florence itself purchasing a beautiful leather journal and letter set from the artisans there,oh to be in Florence right now walking the Arno.I found a peacock design I love which I'm going to purchase,really I want to write letters the old antiquated way,but to whom? I am tired of being a twentieth century girl.In my heart of hearts I'm from another era altogether,probably around 1912.Ive also fallen in love with delicate silver engraved lockets and I'm considering selling them on etsy or maybe I'll sell stationary, wouldn't that be grand.I can hardly think of such things,I'm still really exhausted and tired.I found a nice recipe for Hungarian cookies I may try to make them aren't they so pretty with their decorative icing.I was in love with everything feminine yesterday and still am,I have a sort of war between my wholesome girlish self and my more bohemian wilder self,a little tug of war but they have so much in common like poetry,romance,beauty and feeling.

Oh I love my tea in the morning it diminishes a thousand sorrows,I just purchased a beautiful William Morris mug,just a pretty new cup for myself,I love purchasing online you can get exactly the special thing you want and I loathe stores.I would have loved this briar rose one with its own special box.Somebody get me this fine little mug.Some of my ancestors were English potters I should make my own.Everything timeless and antiquated rings true for me,makes me want to redo my whole life just to have only old world classics in my life.I wrote a list of twenty journal prompts it was not easy,but I did it and I think I'll answer them today,I'm just desperate for a real good quality leather journal with handmade papers.Id also like a long silver bead necklace with a small charm - I'll likely make this.Im not feeling very cottageish or rusticated today though of course I love it still,I feel more more grand and uppity.

Would like to watch the heart of me,a film based on the book the echoing grove,it's really one of my favourite films about bohemian Dinah and her wild walks in the rain,her dramatic tantrums and affairs.I was almost healing enough to watch films in a strange way, but now it's only confusion to even look at them.I am learning not to die to who I was.I still feel myself all a flutter in what is beloved to me.Its taking much of me to not think of red (my soulmate),but I feel I must,its a siren song really it would drown you, but the call is so ancient and deep you can't help but listen a little.I still miss magic,the world use to be under an enchantment,people knew anything was possible,I still think it is so.I thought what sort of film would I like if I could have a film made for me well it would be about a poet and a poetess in love,set in Oxford with a journey to Russia to uncover a family legend about a goddess bird/siren and maybe they meet a bubushka who holds some ancient verse that brings things to life and she finds herself there in the woods,and well my oh my I can do it,I can still think some story.
Now to have my lunch and moon over this little budding film.

A list of my favourite things for October :
Delicate lockets
Painting
Russia
Novo amor
Poetry books
Red
Velvet
Embroidery
Girlish things
Wholesomeness
Wildness
Leather journals
Journaling
The Danish girl
Fortnum and masons
Fairy tales
Florentine paper and stationary
Old world character
William Morris mugs
Hungarian cookies