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Hypocrite

Posted 06-19-2008 at 08:10 PM by mams1559


I was called that today, much to my chagrin. In the context in which it was used against me, I couldn't see why. But then good old doubt enters my mind.

Am I a hypocrite? No one here can answer that. What I portray on this site, people can only take at face value. They don't know the "real" me. They don't know me in real life. But again, it plays in my head ... am I or am I not?

Hypocrite .. the word echos in my brain. It's been bouncing around in there all day now. I'm distracted by it. I ponder its meaning and significance and whether it applies to me. Do I truly deserve that moniker? Dread grows as I reflect and meditate on the word .. hypocrite.

I come to this site to present my opinion, much like everyone else. Unlike lots of folks though, I have one particular area of interest. I like to express my beliefs on my religion and my worldview. So being called a hypocrite has a great impact on me. Is it true .. am I or am I not?

There are two threads running which I have read "Examine Yourself" and "Really Saved" Bear with me, as I beleive they also play a role in my thoughts today. I've followed them with interest but post I dare not.. for I have realized (can I be saying this?) I AM A HYPOCRITE.

It stabs my heart to let that word flow from my lips, but it is apropos. Upon self reflection and examination, I am that which they have labeled me. I have failed, my Lord, please forgive me!

I speak the words I know are true. I believe what I say and say what I mean. But actions speak louder than words. My actions betray my beliefs, and this is the core meaning of hypocrite.

I am saved as I believe on Christ. But is it a heart knowledge or mind knowledge? I know what to say and I know what to believe, but do I really and truly do what is said? Faith without works is no faith at all, so am I saved once and for all? Have I taken it to heart and made it a part of my daily walk?

Most on here would probably say "yes, you do", but again that's based on what I say and not what I do. I am a sinner, through and through. I swear once in a while when anger takes over. I smoke which I am not supposed to do. Who would approach me on the street and know I am a follower of Christ? My attitude is something to be desired. I'm moody and depressed most of the time. Where is the joy that once filled my heart? Life beats you down and my heart is torn apart. The affection for others seems to be forced, which should not be the case if I really put Christ first.

The greatest of all is a thorn that won't leave my side. Try as I might, I cannot break away and it drives my fright. No one can see what that is, except my father in heaven and trust me, he is not pleased. I pray and pray, when I remember to, to release me from this bondage. My wife knows and cannot help. It is something I must do all by myself.

With tears of shame, and only I to blame, I realize I am what they say .. a hypocrite. The truth stings and hurts and adds another burden, for what that's worth.
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    Remember Paul begged God three times to take away his thorn 2 Corth 12:7-10
    But God said "My grace is sufficient for, for power is perfected in weakness"
    God's power is displayed in our weaknesses and should give us hope and courage. When we are weak, He is strong! Allow God to fill you with His power
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    Posted 06-19-2008 at 08:18 PM by I LOVE NORTH CAROLINA I LOVE NORTH CAROLINA is online now
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    Mark, I have no words to bring you comfort, I have no jokes to make you smile, I have no works to show you faith..All I have is love across the miles and prayers to God for your peace, your health, and for your wonderful wifes health..I love you because you are my dear humble friend..
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    Posted 06-20-2008 at 05:08 AM by Miss Blue Miss Blue is offline
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    I know you've read this. We've discussed it.
    We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

    So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God's law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
    So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin. Romans 7:14-25
    Remember, that's Paul speaking!

    Super Paul! Vessel used to author most of our New Testament.

    That conviction and that hurt are a testimony my fiend.

    Be strong and make the change with Christ as your rock.

    Jesus is bigger than any bondage.

    ANY bondage.
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    Posted 06-20-2008 at 07:28 AM by Alpha8207 Alpha8207 is offline
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    Mams, your words echo my thoughts at times towards myself.. I have so many failings.. there are some areas where I fail in and fail in again and again.. and here I am, on CD or somewhere else.. and they can't see what's inside me! They think everything's ok. They maybe see someone who's speaking as a "righteous Christian".

    But you know what? These self-kicking thoughts are not from the Lord. The Lord doesn't come to His child (at least not to me) and say "You stupid hypocrite, just look at you!" No, that is the devil's tactic... his greatest delight is to get us to sin, and then taunt us when we fail! The Lord looks at us with LOVE! He gently calls us, "Come to me. Truly trust in Me and in My ability to help You. Yes, I see that you've failed.. but I love you and want to help you with your problems. That's why I died for you!"

    Mams, just realize that "there hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man"! I fail in the same way you do. Everything I say here on CD I am also saying to myself.. if it is a reproof, often it reproves me as well. We'll all pray for you!

    Your Christian bro, cg81
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    Posted 06-20-2008 at 07:43 AM by cg81 cg81 is offline
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    Mams,

    Sorry you are hurting right now. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

    Do you have anyone besides your dear wife that you can open up with and be accountable to? I think of the scripture in James which speaks about confessing our faults one to another that we might be healed. It's important to choose the right person, but sometimes this can be a help in breaking a bondage.

    Whatever, as cg just said, we will be praying for you. I am also going to pray that if it's the Lord's will, that He bring an individual in your life who you can possibly share with and pray with.

    By the way, I think your transparency here is commendable and a big step toward healing and freedom. You are certainly not the only one who struggles with issues, myself very much included.

    Blessings,
    kk
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    Posted 06-20-2008 at 12:44 PM by kaykay kaykay is offline
    Updated 06-20-2008 at 04:48 PM by kaykay
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    I don't know you...This is my first day on the site.

    However...I read what you have to say. What I hear most from you is, "Am I a hypocrite?"

    My answer is very simply...

    "If you have to ask, then you are not."

    Be strong and fight the Good Fight!
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    Posted 03-21-2012 at 06:19 PM by TymmC65 TymmC65 is offline
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    Well...

    I personally believe we're all hypocrites, and the term doesn't usually offend me. "Do I look fat in this?" - My answer, "No". "Is lying wrong?" - My answer, "Yes". Do we all do it on some levels? Yes. Last time I checked, there was only one person who walked the earth in perfection. So, if you call me a hypocrite, I won't be offended, because I sin daily, yet I put on the face of Christ, and fail daily. People who kick you when you're down and call you a hypocrite aren't worth having as friends...
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    no ones Perfect ... let he without sin cast the 1st stone.

    Don't be so hard on yourself. God knows your heart. Just do your best n treat people as you would want them to treat you and God will be proud. We can't please every body ... there will always be someone who will have a problem with what you do... No Matter how well your doing it. Some will choose the fact that ur doing well as a reson to hate you. I love you n ur heart speaks through your word's. Just knowing how much you want to change n please God is beautiful to me.
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    It sounds like your thinking on this too much. I am like that. I criticize myself alot and it sounds like your post and then I drive myself nuts. Change the channel in your mind. God loves you.
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    Posted 04-02-2013 at 05:36 PM by mitchie87 mitchie87 is offline
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    When I first started reading this post I was like " o.k. let's see what this person has to say. I think If you would have called It something else (the post) I probably wouldn't have read this but, my brain has It's own brain "so to speak". We call It Subconscious mind. It kinda was like my brain stopped but everything else kept going. It caught my eye, that word, hypocrite. That word can cut pretty deep. Depending on the situation. Reason It cuts Is due to guilt, embarrassment , shame, and last but not least TRUTH.. My philosophy Is based on a belief that life Is an apprenticeship to the truth. Around every circle of truth a larger circle can grow. The extent to which this circle expands depends on the force of truth In which the Individual manifest. Nothing Is at last sacred but the Integrity of out minds.. But nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm. Practice makes perfect. Nobody can do what Jesus Is doing or even come close. I will always be a sinner, a hypocrite, liar, fornicator, all the above until I'm saved. We are like gold to the lord" In a sense" because we have to be purified before we get to the upper room. So he Is putting us through the fire like gold goes through fire. Go with the blessings. Tha'ts what our hardships are!! Part of our blessings. What dont kill you makes you stronger bud. Stay honest with yourself and everyone you come In contact with. You will only be respected and liked and also trusted. God already knows your heart. He know's what we think. I know I will stay sinning and so does he. I don't think any human can be purified here on earth. It's Impossible. I wake up to my skin trying to murder me every single day. It's double jeopardy. My skin tagged teamed up with Satan. Double the temptation. Stay Honest with yourself and stay In the moment at all times. Be quite and conscious at all times, watch god do his do..Amen..
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    First of all, I want to point out that "dirtysgv23" is basing his belief on a secret lie that was promulgated centuries ago and upon which Islam is a spin off, Masons, Skull & Bones,etc. This "secret" path to knowledge(or gnosis)is being perpetuated today through the ruse of Douglas Coe who heads "The Fellowship" (it even SOUNDS evil)and founded The National Day of Prayer. All these powerful people he has brought into The Fellowship believe in the false Jesus Christ of the Secret who was never crucified. In the Gnostic Gospel (their Bible)it says with gnosis you can become greater than Christ. The reason I bring all this up,Mams, is that you, too, have been lied to and you are just now beginning to recognize it because you desire to seek truth and to please and serve God. If you read about God in the Old Testament you will get an accurate view of His just and holy character and what He requires of those who love and want to serve Him. I'm not talking about a bunch of burdensome rules and regulations which churches (especially the Presbyterian Church of America who are the Pharisees Jesus spoke of (and beware! Paul was a Pharisee!)more on that later. I am talking about serving Him with a passionate heart(remember the most important Commandment?). It is hard for some people to passionately worship and devote themselves to something that they can't see with their eyes, but if you begin to view God accurately, that He is the creator of the universe, that He rules the world,that He is invisible but reflects Himself through the beauty and intricacies of nature, and then in Jesus, the King, and He gave us His Word, the holy scriptures, to show us how to live and how NOT to live, and shows the results of our disobedience through many real examples and the prophesies, if you realize you are in the ARMY OF GOD, on the front lines, fighting to the death to defend His holy name and His justice,only when you realize this and take it to heart with all its full and awesome implications, can you understand how you are to live your life. You will begin to perceive your actions through the eyes of the Holy Spirit and then you will know what is truly sinful. One of the greatest sins Christians commit is not reading the authentic translation of the Bible (literally, word for word from the original Hebrew,as in The American Standard version which is hard to find, look on internet, not newer translations that substitute with modern words or words that might make a verse that doesn't seem to make sense, make sense! Remember God's warning in Deuteronomy to not add to or take away (or distort).) Mams, God is calling you to repent! And you have heard His call! He promises that those who repent will be saved. Start reading the Bible (American Standard Version) beginning in the Old Testament and read it like you would a good novel, not "precept upon precept, line by line, a little here, a little there." as God warned us not to. Who picks up a novel(story)and only reads certain portions of it? Who reads a novel and ignores words they don't understand or concepts that they may have trouble with? No, you read the ENTIRE novel as a whole so you can begin to see the TRUE storyline. Back to Paul, he himself said all scripture was God-breathed(God/breath/word, or God's words)but there are many examples in The New Testament where Paul himself delineates between God's words, and my, Paul's words. And many of his words contradict God's and Jesus's words! Christians have been taught the lie that because all scripture is God-breathed we must follow the added words of Paul(which God allowed as an example of what a false prophet will look/sound like, a wolf in sheep's clothing...Paul's own words!) It is so obvious to those of us who know the scriptures (and the nature of the true God to give us glaring examples as warnings)but Christians today can't see the forest through the trees. So, press foreword my fellow soldier and I will see you on the front lines! (all the other "Christians" have gone AWOL on Christ!) And the wrath of God will be poured out on Babylon! He who has an ear let him hear!
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