Exposed Part 10
Posted 07-18-2008 at 08:56 AM by Pam& Bill
Yesterday as Bill and I were on the Interstate heading into Knoxville, we both agreed that our move to Tennessee was a great experience for us both. Did anyone noticed how time came to a screeching halt for about 45 seconds? The ground shook and the dark clouds covered the sun. This all happened because Bill said " I can't believe I'm going to say this, but.... I actually like Knoxville better then New Orleans" Well isn't that a powerful endorsement for the Knoxville Chamber of Commerce?
We love Tennessee, we love the Mountains, we love the people and the easy going lifestyle. We've put down roots and didn't even know it was happening. Sure being able to own our own home has eluded us for 2 years, but we still love Tennessee, the place we discovered and started our life together in. Tennessee is our home.
Tennessee with its live and let live lifestyle. Tennessee where we have fallen into a completely unstructured lifestyle. I no longer own a watch that works. Bill and I don't live our days by a clock, we eat when we are hungry, go to sleep when we are tired. There isn't any rigid pattern to our days and it suits us. Which is why it is with great sadness that we'll be moving and starting a whole new chapter in our lives.
In less then 2 weeks on the 31st of July 2008, we are moving to North Carolina. We are moving to the top of a mountain in the Asheville area.It is kind of fitting that we'll start the next chapter in North Carolina in the Asheville area on a mountaintop.
It seems that Bills heart disease has progressed and he is now in critical end stages. The doctors have all told him that if he has 6 months left he'll be very lucky, but realistically with his condition he has less then 6 months.
But we don't focus on the end, we focus on every day and living it to the fullest. As hard as it is not to let the news overwhelm and overshadow every day, we keep getting up, greeting each new day and living as if the doctors are all wrong.
Some days I catch myself thinking that this is so unfair, we've only had 3 years together! That we were destined to be together to help heal each other from the harsh realities of our life before we met. Then I stop and think that I wouldn't trade what we've had for the last 3 years for anything. At least I had these 3 years with Bill. It is a trade off, the bigger the happiness, the bigger the grief. It seems you can't have one without the other. At least I had both. Not many people can say that. Although sometimes that isn't any consolation.
Bill and I take care of one another. Better yet we spoil one another shamelessly. This blog has been all about us so I'd remember and never forget the intense love we share.
I'm starting to get excited about this newest adventure. Bill always promised me that life with him would never be boring. It hasn't been boring at all but rather quirky and offbeat and interesting.
We love Tennessee, we love the Mountains, we love the people and the easy going lifestyle. We've put down roots and didn't even know it was happening. Sure being able to own our own home has eluded us for 2 years, but we still love Tennessee, the place we discovered and started our life together in. Tennessee is our home.
Tennessee with its live and let live lifestyle. Tennessee where we have fallen into a completely unstructured lifestyle. I no longer own a watch that works. Bill and I don't live our days by a clock, we eat when we are hungry, go to sleep when we are tired. There isn't any rigid pattern to our days and it suits us. Which is why it is with great sadness that we'll be moving and starting a whole new chapter in our lives.
In less then 2 weeks on the 31st of July 2008, we are moving to North Carolina. We are moving to the top of a mountain in the Asheville area.It is kind of fitting that we'll start the next chapter in North Carolina in the Asheville area on a mountaintop.
It seems that Bills heart disease has progressed and he is now in critical end stages. The doctors have all told him that if he has 6 months left he'll be very lucky, but realistically with his condition he has less then 6 months.
But we don't focus on the end, we focus on every day and living it to the fullest. As hard as it is not to let the news overwhelm and overshadow every day, we keep getting up, greeting each new day and living as if the doctors are all wrong.
Some days I catch myself thinking that this is so unfair, we've only had 3 years together! That we were destined to be together to help heal each other from the harsh realities of our life before we met. Then I stop and think that I wouldn't trade what we've had for the last 3 years for anything. At least I had these 3 years with Bill. It is a trade off, the bigger the happiness, the bigger the grief. It seems you can't have one without the other. At least I had both. Not many people can say that. Although sometimes that isn't any consolation.
Bill and I take care of one another. Better yet we spoil one another shamelessly. This blog has been all about us so I'd remember and never forget the intense love we share.
I'm starting to get excited about this newest adventure. Bill always promised me that life with him would never be boring. It hasn't been boring at all but rather quirky and offbeat and interesting.
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Pam, I never expected this blog to have a tragic ending..But ya know something..Doctors are wrong in their predictions lots of times..You and Bill have lived a lifetime of adventure and healings thus far, why give in to a medical prediction..Instead of living each day as the last day, live each day as the first day of a long, loving happy life..I love Ashville, it is beautiful, but I am partial to mountains..I will say a prayer for you and Bill, and if you don't mind I will also post a request in the prayer thread..There is power in prayer~hugs~ bluePosted 07-18-2008 at 10:30 AM by Miss Blue
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Pam, I wasn't expecting this. I'm sorry to hear about Bill but as Bev said doctors can be wrong. Your blogs have been such an eye opener to what life offers. I will say a prayer for you and Bill.
JoshPosted 07-18-2008 at 02:44 PM by JoshB
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Pam and Bill........I started on chaper one today, then like reading a good book and having to continue on.....I began to read right up to ten.
Ten...........a stunner to me.
I can only say to you that sometimes the doctors are so wrong. I learned this the hard way when my husband almost needed a heart transplant. When part of his heart was dead and there was nothing to bypass to.
Standing at the doorway to two of these major procedures. ( two seperate times)......can make your feelings about life and the entire world change.
God has given us 20 more years with the help of all the scientific inventions and meds..........
I want God to be beside you both........and pass along his strengh to you. Blessings............SummeringPosted 07-18-2008 at 04:22 PM by Summering
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Pam and Bill, Today is my first sighting of your blog--well, I read a message you posted earlier. You are an amazing women and have great skill with words and writings. I have just read all your entries and I am blown away with your vivid details exposing your life's experiences previously and now as you face an even greater life challenge in your relationship with Bill. I have drawn much strength from your writings and send prayers and love to both you and Bill. And, I agree your story is a publisher's candidate. Your day-b-day coverage always includes and uplifting ending. You are a special women.Posted 07-19-2008 at 08:47 AM by Suzanne45
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Pam, I must say even though I already knew about Bill, reading it in the blog hit me in a different way. You know that I am a strong believer in prayer and I don't always believe that doctors just from previous experience with my mother in law. Just remember this Bill's life is in God's hands, it's not up to the doctor how long he lives. I will continuously lift you up in prayer and ask the Lord to do His will. You know I'm here for you always no matter where you go..Posted 07-19-2008 at 09:23 AM by petie
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I have read Post one - ten within the past half hour. I laughed and smiled all the way through, I didnt expect a post like this one.. now I have tears in my eyes. I hope and wish for the best for the two of you. Hopefully you have a lot longer than expected, but if not - you had something real and you will always have those real feelings which is rare for people to find in life. My prayers and wishes go out to you and Bill. If anything, you have an entire community who cares right here. Please keep updating!! Best of luck to you.Posted 07-31-2008 at 11:21 AM by ColoradoHereWeCome
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started reading this, looking for advice in relocating to ashville,then say last part of blog. wow. don't know either of you, but sure wishing you luck and that your hubby beats this. wish you both the best.Posted 09-26-2009 at 02:07 PM by indian2002
