Ok so now I've pulled myself together, took a couple of days
. I can talk about the saga, He turned up on my doorstep other night, we had a horrible evening he was really nasty (he was in a weird mood) and made me cry. He left, he text 5 times saying sorry for upsetting me, we had a long text talk, I said I can't do this meaningless thing anymore, I have feelings for you and like you alot.
He says well next time we will have a nice talk. He text me next morning to see if I was ok, and again sorry for upsetting me. Then yesterday a he texted me Hey sexy are you having a good day. I replied, and that was it.
I know I have given mixed signals and been a bit blase, like when he told me he thought about me all the time and I just ignored the comment, so when/if we do ever have that nice talk I know I need to be clear. But what is he up to...trying to get me back into the casual thing or considering more. How do I be honest with out it coming across like "its my way or the highway" & how do I know if he is being honest.
I really don't want to play games, its hard for me to be open and honest since my last ex but I do really want to try. My life is full, stressful and demanding and I love it, my friends are great, we have fun and I'm happy with my life now, but I would like to share it with someone also, I don't NEED to but would LIKE to and in an ideal world I'd like that to be with him.