Emotional landscapes,more poetry,stale civilisation
Well I listened to bjorks 'Enjoy' live,I use to watch this everyday years ago it was my anthem,I use to feel everything listening to that song,"look at the speed out there it magnetises me to it".All her songs were cathartic for me some emotional,primitive and ancient call,some chaotic place where the emotions ruled everything.Bjork is still the most emotive and creative of her kind.I didn't feel much listening to it as I use to, I've been emotionally on low light for years and now it's worse.I spent the whole afternoon wishing I was a beautiful wild poet running amok, just flooded with emotion and passion,writing poem after poem in my leather journal with initials on the front.Living in some caravan in the welsh countryside with some beloved,playing folk music all day and drinking vodka whilst dancing in the moonlight.How did my life come to this.All my twenties I was going to be a remarkable bohemian,but still my gosh I've had such an amazing life,more thrilling than any novel.
But I would still like to be that tangled black haired poet with blush cheeks,free spirited and ranging.Id like to have roamed and wandered and created without rest,I was just so creative once,I did a few brilliant pieces of poetry and paintings but most things never exceeded to genius.Now I have such high regard for poetry and what I expect of myself for each word to be riddled,obscure,difficult and romantic,pretty and perculiar and to be a flood of imbas(divine poetic inspiration) that anything less than that I can't bear,so I have little.Mostly I write poems about doomsday,no love poetry.I read some Cummings just desperate for some wild carousing souls like he was,some lack of reason which he was so keen on,he did not dissapoint " I do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses" he really got out of the cages of grammar,all rules and all words.I think someone really ought to thank his friend Thayer who supported and paid for everything so he could write and write.
It seems to me people are duller because they live under order,they have task after task to see to,they have to be at work at 8,they just can't dance in a sacred circle like their ancient ancestors did.Its very disappointing and what do they get for it a subscription to netflix,a mortgage,tedious things they don't need and don't fulfil them.
I'm still reading my book 'am I bipolar or waking up' it's really pretty good,I'm liking it,though the title is a bit dim.Its good to hear others talk about experiences similar to mine,this guy went through the system but left and became a shaman in Brazil because he said the west was too civilised,he says that everyone in the west is pretending to be civilised.Of course I agree and get tired of the sheer lack of emotion and excess reason I see in the west,only in Hungary did I see people crying in the park,making out everywhere etc etc in the west everyone is stiff as boards.I think though if you go among some poor areas you will see them unleashed! But in a sad way.I don't know I can be very uppity and civilised but I deep down I want to run amok just like everybody else.
But I would still like to be that tangled black haired poet with blush cheeks,free spirited and ranging.Id like to have roamed and wandered and created without rest,I was just so creative once,I did a few brilliant pieces of poetry and paintings but most things never exceeded to genius.Now I have such high regard for poetry and what I expect of myself for each word to be riddled,obscure,difficult and romantic,pretty and perculiar and to be a flood of imbas(divine poetic inspiration) that anything less than that I can't bear,so I have little.Mostly I write poems about doomsday,no love poetry.I read some Cummings just desperate for some wild carousing souls like he was,some lack of reason which he was so keen on,he did not dissapoint " I do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses" he really got out of the cages of grammar,all rules and all words.I think someone really ought to thank his friend Thayer who supported and paid for everything so he could write and write.
It seems to me people are duller because they live under order,they have task after task to see to,they have to be at work at 8,they just can't dance in a sacred circle like their ancient ancestors did.Its very disappointing and what do they get for it a subscription to netflix,a mortgage,tedious things they don't need and don't fulfil them.
I'm still reading my book 'am I bipolar or waking up' it's really pretty good,I'm liking it,though the title is a bit dim.Its good to hear others talk about experiences similar to mine,this guy went through the system but left and became a shaman in Brazil because he said the west was too civilised,he says that everyone in the west is pretending to be civilised.Of course I agree and get tired of the sheer lack of emotion and excess reason I see in the west,only in Hungary did I see people crying in the park,making out everywhere etc etc in the west everyone is stiff as boards.I think though if you go among some poor areas you will see them unleashed! But in a sad way.I don't know I can be very uppity and civilised but I deep down I want to run amok just like everybody else.
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