"Every day I discover more and more beautiful things. It’s enough to drive one mad. I have such a desire to do everything, my head is bursting with it." -Claude Monet

Had a delightful cinnamon scroll and tea,it really was magic I haven't had a cinnamon scroll for about six months,such small happinesses. I've noticed treats are only good when you have them occasionally you have them everyday they seem stale.It was a glorious day yesterday despite everything,I felt a little...

"She wished she had a little yellow house of her own, with a flower box full of real flowers and herbs, pansies and rosemary – and a sweet lover who would swing dance with her in the evenings and cook pasta and read poetry aloud…“. — Francesca Lia Block

I'm coping okay today with my illness and everything else,its the worst it's been.I think of various answers and the days ahead alot but I'm cosy and in a good frame of mind.I have much to overcome in the months ahead.I...

Feeling a little better reading posie gets cozy which is cheerful,talking about pear-cinnamon cider and homemade mushroom sauce.Feel so much like nourishing good food, I had some cannelloni with vegetables,I'm fixed on Italian food at the moment and it's all I want to eat and if I was well I'd eat three lovely full nourishing meals a day.It does you so good.Oh can you imagine growing everything in your vegetable garden and cooking from it.I really can't imagine anything better.Thought alot today...

Well illness has gotten much worse and despite a somewhat okay day I am now feeling overwhelmed by that and many other things too.I was besotted with him two days ago,wanted to make him pumpkin soup with cream,parsley and rye bread but now I feel ho hum.I thought so much yesterday that my life was hard but so meaningful and magical,I thought that all day that I journey across otherworlds,I live in a universe full of symbols and riddles,life is not random and meaningless for me.But now I think others...

It's been the hardest few weeks I was barely coping,I spent nights cold and confused just after such cosy months full of phantasms and happinesses it has been the hardest fearful few weeks.I still can't quite see a way out of this time.He feels close which helps everything.I want nothing more than to return to Febuary,writing novels,looking at cottages in the countryside,looking at fortnum and masons,watching films. I felt fragile and anxious.

Im doing better the past few days,I'm...