I love to observe people. To study and observe the nature of individuals. I am a fantastic listener and there are certain observations I have made.
Without going into too much details on why or how I feel this way, I think that happiness especially when concerned with relationship and love is not just fleeting but impossible.
People are bound to get bored or sick of the other person with time. I see this among people irregardless of their nationality or race or culture....two individuals are bound to get sick of the others company.
This is the predicament of the human condition. With people, with places, with most everything unless you are too passionate about it(say jazz or travelling which can last a lifetime).
Say a city dwelling person desires to someday live on a pristine island away from the chaos of mainstream life.
He saves each day, looks at a picture of that island to inspire him. Finally he lands on his island.
Day 1: He is full of pure bliss. The sound of the ocean, the feel of sand between his toes, the air.
Week 1: He is happy to finally live in his paradise. He tells it to anyone he meets. He explores. He wanders.
Month 1: This is when the symptoms of redundancy kick in. He sits on the beach and wonders...okay...now what? what next.
Same with love and relationship. It is fleeting. The infatuation in the beginning is intoxicating but eventually it starts to wear off. A man and a woman will have many differences but that isn't even the point. The fact that you are with the person day in and day out wears you down. Add to it external issues and no wonder there is this thing called divorce.
What I am trying to say is that I see my fellow friends married, some even with babies(the ultimate burden that binds one) but I hear the problems and its usually the same everywhere. The only reason, I feel, any couple stays together is because of financial reasons or children, or other obligations.
Do you agree with me? I am asking you regarding the collective thought process of us human beings. No one thinks on this level, we are too preoccupied with our problems. But if you stand back and wonder, maybe the fact that we are not created to be satisfied is one reason people are so unhappy.
So, I went to Thailand and one sunny day lying on the beach thought of an idea: perhaps to help my fellow man. The transmutation of sexual energy!
THE TRANSMUTATION OF SEXUAL ENERGY, my fellow men. and women.
Most of us try to find peace in sex, in love when it is not possible in the long run.
So why not invest in it like a business transaction?
I asked a beautiful Thai girl to be my lover, my amour
for a few weeks of a certain month each year. There was fun, there was an UNDERSTANDING. Sex was hardly the agenda. She came from a poor background and the bare basic affordabilities made her content(no expensive gifts and stuff). In return I was getting a good supply of love, sex and understanding. We talked about astronomy, my business plans, her grandparents. And that was it!
Why can't we expand this idea on a larger scale? We are brainwashed and led to believe that this is right or that is wrong. Is it wrong in wanting to be rich? Hell, no. If I want to work hard and afford a life to distract me from nihilistic thoughts which lead to negative thoughts, why shouldn't I?
If I want to sign a contract of love in return of understanding why shouldn't I?
We sat on the beach and I came up with this business idea I want to implement and my outlook on life just changed. I wasn't stuck.
You can buy love, my fellow friends. If there is mutual understanding then there are few greater contentment. Someday when I am 38 and wanting to sit in front of my TV and get together with friends and family I will marry. But till then why can't I have diversity and joy?