memories
Posted 10-18-2019 at 06:11 AM by trickydawn
Updated 10-18-2019 at 06:18 AM by trickydawn (adding something)
Updated 10-18-2019 at 06:18 AM by trickydawn (adding something)
As I try for the thousandth time to just let you go and accept I can't make you love and want me the way you said you did, and the way I do you, I am stuck laying in bed all night with memory after memory of moments we spent together. I have a future to be thinking of, a missing niece/daughter that also means I can't see her kids, a son who is unhappy, a sister stuck on a track over 3oo miles away, and that is what I should be losing sleep over if anything. And I do, but more than any other thing, happy or sad, it is you that is on my mind day and night. So here I am on the computer to try and get it out.
MEMORIES JUST RANDOM MEMORIES
When we used to sit on the couch all day long, you picking movies, me laying my head in your lap. Every few hours, we would end up naked, me on you lap, us on the floor, taking turns pleasing each other, than back to the movie, my head in you lap napping till we can't keep our hands off each other again.
Us walking around the park with our dogs, just talking about everything and nothing with a few shots in us.
Laying in our bed, you rubbing my head, telling me all your future dreams. I would get so excited listening to your passion for everything you shared with me.
Our first kiss, it was the end of me ever wanting anyone else
Seeing your face when we were at the Cirque De Soleil show at GSR. You said you didn't think you would like it, but it was one of the most amazing things you ever saw, and loved it.
Watching you play with baby Matthew when you watched him for Jodi.
You sitting by my side while I was in the hospital. Holding my hand, telling me you loved me. Making love to me in the hospital bed. Reminding me that I did matter. I mattered to you, you loved and needed me, and that was another reason to care about my life.
You singing in the shower. I love it
Playing in the game area at GSR, taking pictures in the booth, giggling like kids.
The intense look in your eyes when you would stare into mine while making love, and say, "I love you Tricia"
How you laugh when watching the (imho) the dumbest tv shows or movies, and you laugh so hard
You calling me My Lady. My heart would skip every time you said it.
When you asked me to marry you like 10 times in one night and slow danced with me in the bedroom.
Getting random sweet texts from you when you were at work.
Driving to Oregon, you at my side. How you checked on that deer in the road.
Every time you held me is something I close my eyes and try to feel so often. How your hand felt on my face.
Watching the Nitro Circus with you in Reno.
How I always felt safe, like I knew you would protect me if ever needed when I was with you.
Painting with you at Mona Lisa and wine. You were so into it, and I loved watching you.
Going to you first baseball game and seeing your sexy ass in uniform. Seeing you nervousness, but at the same time, feeling your excitement.
Watching you play with Cali, loving on her, worrying about her.
The first fireworks show we watched together.
Going to the ER together for the yeast infection. lol
The drive in. I don't even remember the movie, just remember you..and me
Little moments, bigger moments. Yes, some bad moments, but the good overshadows them so much. I love you, want you, need you. I believe in you, I MISS you. All the above Fiercely.
MEMORIES JUST RANDOM MEMORIES
When we used to sit on the couch all day long, you picking movies, me laying my head in your lap. Every few hours, we would end up naked, me on you lap, us on the floor, taking turns pleasing each other, than back to the movie, my head in you lap napping till we can't keep our hands off each other again.
Us walking around the park with our dogs, just talking about everything and nothing with a few shots in us.
Laying in our bed, you rubbing my head, telling me all your future dreams. I would get so excited listening to your passion for everything you shared with me.
Our first kiss, it was the end of me ever wanting anyone else
Seeing your face when we were at the Cirque De Soleil show at GSR. You said you didn't think you would like it, but it was one of the most amazing things you ever saw, and loved it.
Watching you play with baby Matthew when you watched him for Jodi.
You sitting by my side while I was in the hospital. Holding my hand, telling me you loved me. Making love to me in the hospital bed. Reminding me that I did matter. I mattered to you, you loved and needed me, and that was another reason to care about my life.
You singing in the shower. I love it
Playing in the game area at GSR, taking pictures in the booth, giggling like kids.
The intense look in your eyes when you would stare into mine while making love, and say, "I love you Tricia"
How you laugh when watching the (imho) the dumbest tv shows or movies, and you laugh so hard
You calling me My Lady. My heart would skip every time you said it.
When you asked me to marry you like 10 times in one night and slow danced with me in the bedroom.
Getting random sweet texts from you when you were at work.
Driving to Oregon, you at my side. How you checked on that deer in the road.
Every time you held me is something I close my eyes and try to feel so often. How your hand felt on my face.
Watching the Nitro Circus with you in Reno.
How I always felt safe, like I knew you would protect me if ever needed when I was with you.
Painting with you at Mona Lisa and wine. You were so into it, and I loved watching you.
Going to you first baseball game and seeing your sexy ass in uniform. Seeing you nervousness, but at the same time, feeling your excitement.
Watching you play with Cali, loving on her, worrying about her.
The first fireworks show we watched together.
Going to the ER together for the yeast infection. lol
The drive in. I don't even remember the movie, just remember you..and me
Little moments, bigger moments. Yes, some bad moments, but the good overshadows them so much. I love you, want you, need you. I believe in you, I MISS you. All the above Fiercely.
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