well after bloging on here about the one i hurt , well it seems through the darkness abit of sunshine broke through .... he finially talk to me .. it was ok i want him back , i want things to retun to the way it was .. i know it'll take time for him to mend .. and i'll be there for him when he comes around ... like always in the shadow i will be waiting for him ....i wish i could take things back but hey when like someone so bad that you can all most taste you have to just have what they offer...

I've just returned from my afternoon break, you know, the 15 minutes of peace and quiet before returning to the chaos of work. Well, today work is actually quiet, hence this blog, but I digress...

I was standing outside, in the back alley behind my office building, just pausing to really look around. There was hardly any sound, except the faint noise of traffic. I looked up at the hillside, noticing how green the trees looked today, despite the gray clouds of a threatening storm...

We found a nice spot and pulled over to the side of the road. I was nervous, my palms sweating, and I was gripping the steering wheel until my knuckles turned white. My heart was racing and I didn't know what to say or do. I had never imagined being in this situation before and I had certainly not planned for it that night. Like many things in life, without prior planning or thought it just sort of happened.

I began to collect my thoughts and I realized that at least it was a dark...

hurt !!!!!
why do we hurt the one's we love ? why is that we take great pleasure in it to ? ... ... lately i have stop watching the news cause on there is nothing but bad stuff..mothers geting away with killing their own children ... that only makes my blood boil .. having never had kids of my own i pray for the little angels born into familys that abuse them,starve them and in the end kill them .. i pray for the elderly that their love ones just dump them in nursing homes and...

lie"s !!!!!!

some times lie's can hurt , and make you feel like your worth nothing ... it seems like no matter how hard i tryed to believe in this person he lie'd to me ... and the one that i put aside from him is now hurting ..i feel bad and tryed to make it up to him ... but no matter how hard i cant make the one i hurt feel better .. he feels like he lost me as a friend .. which he didnt , but hey i did hurt him ...there are times i think back on the ones...