Well illness has gotten much worse and despite a somewhat okay day I am now feeling overwhelmed by that and many other things too.I was besotted with him two days ago,wanted to make him pumpkin soup with cream,parsley and rye bread but now I feel ho hum.I thought so much yesterday that my life was hard but so meaningful and magical,I thought that all day that I journey across otherworlds,I live in a universe full of symbols and riddles,life is not random and meaningless for me.But now I think others...
