I have worked long and hard on my early childhood unhappiness, pain and TRAUMAS and at a kind of ending.
Yesterday, while on a long walk out of doors, I came to see just how the PTSD of our dad had set me up to live with the relentless burden of PTSD for most of my early life.
The combination of my older brother's violent hatred and jealousy of my plus our dad's occasional violent outburst left me in a permanent state of fear, anxiety, depression and an early desire to commit suicide...

Have been speaking to an Irish boy on okcupid about soulmates,reincarnation and the like wrote a short post about the red string of fate and Yuanfen for my new blog.I really prefer European spiritual traditions,especially my own ancestral traditions which I'm thinking about all the time.
I wonder how people are guided without it.

thinking of doing block prints and linocuts of various goddesses or whatever else I give birth too.i will buy supplies for it yet again.my favourite...

you seem really upset on the forusm?> what happened?!?!

Home organised,chores done and prettied up.I've got a flower crown on today to celebrate summer solistice and really wish I could paint the Irish sun goddess Etain - again to celebrate the summer and the complete adoration and love the sun gives us.
But inwardly I'm still in wintery Xmas moods perhaps I've never climatised to Australia,spiritually,physically or emotionally.
Reading about the sun as a wheel,can't say I'm into summer I love winter and spring.
I will still watch...

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