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Originally Posted by Randomguy18
Because if I do nothing, then she leaves unscathed and I’ll be the only one who’s hurt from this. I want to hurt her in some way as well (not physically).
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Stop. Seriously, STOP.
Sit the hell down.
Think about what the title of this thread, and this post above, say about YOU as a person.
I have been through my fair amount of $#!+ AND somebody else's. I've endured a hideous amount of abuse at the hands of people I should have known better than to ever become involved with, but I had my own problems and a lot of growing up to do. Nevertheless, I've played and I've paid.
Whatever "no one really understands how I feel" BS you may be telling yourself, you are NOT the only person to ever be used or abused, and you won't be the last.
So right this moment stop screaming in your own head. Just stop, and listen.
It's normal to want to hit someone back. And quite frankly, I do NOT buy into all the holier-than-thou BS regarding taking the high road, being "the better person," and all that crap. I enjoy seeing someone get their comeuppance. I like when what goes around comes around.
But I also know the POISON of anger, know it from the inside. I've feasted on the stuff, great, steaming gobbets of it shoved by the fistful down my own gullet.
Oh, ha-ha, I'll show you evil people!
Late at night when you're sitting there in bed and the wheels just won't stop turning because you're SO hurt and you're SO angry, and it's all just.... NOT......
FAIR.
If you're not just a troll -- Lord knows we have plenty of them here, folks who think it's fun to set the hounds barking -- then either you're seriously contemplating this and stupid enough to think folks here will help you find creative ways to exercise your inner sociopath; or you're actually asking for HELP, just not in a healthy way.
Newsflash 1: Sometimes the bad guys win.
Newsflash 2: If you carry around all that anger and venom, then you're continuing to let them win. Every single time you relive something she did ONCE, you're doing it to yourself AGAIN.
Newsflash 3: If you stoop to that level, even though you feel briefly justified, you're becoming them -- another win for the bad guys. We become what we practice, and you're practicing darkness, and doing it proactively. That's a CHOICE.
Aaaaand
newsflash 4: By becoming a darker version of yourself -- seriously, go ahead if that's who you want to be -- you are wasting valuable time on someone who obviously doesn't think you matter. Let me spell that out clearly:
YOU
are investing your time, thought, and effort
into HER.
You say she used you, took advantage of you. That means she stole your time, your efforts, your thoughts, the dedication of your feelings.
Question: Why would you give her MORE? And consciously?
You lost someone you cared about, but they didn't care about you.
She lost someone who cared about her, even if today she doesn't know it.
Finally,
newsflash 5: The more time you waste on her, the less time you have for anything else in life, up to and including someone out there who actually matters.
Your choice: You can get busy living, or waste time jumping off the Magnificent and Lofty Cliff of Arsehole because someone else did and it ticked you off.